I'm just getting so impatient. I want to die now! I've had a big knife called a Ka-Bar stored away for awhile now but am reluctant to use it. But every once in awhile I think about things like stabbing myself in the heart and the neck to kill myself quickly (I hope) but it's probably extremely painful. Does everyone think using a knife is a bad idea?
Mofreeko
Arcanist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 478
Oof, easier said than done. Survival Instinct makes it very hard for us to harm ourselves, at least fatally, on purpose. Is there no way you can get access to a nitrogen cylinder or order N from A? Or even find a place to jump?
I realize that it would be easier in the long run to just wait and do an easier method. It's just that at this moment I'm feeling so impatient. I already failed epicly at finding a place to hang myself and I'm just so frustrated that I can't just die right now.
Mofreeko
Arcanist
- Apr 7, 2019
- 478
Yeah I hear you man. If there was a button I could press to end it all now I would do it without hesitation. That said, using a knife is very unlikely to succeed and you'll just make a mess and wind up in emergency when panic takes over. You might even get sectioned. I would advise against it.
Yeah, I guess I just needed to hear it from somebody. I'm just so impulsive sometimes
DepressionsAHo
Heaven gained a new ho
- Feb 15, 2019
- 831
I get it. Trust me. I had a mental breakdown and I posted it on here. I couldn't find my pills but I was going to swallow every last bit of them
This feeling will past. But fuck me with a spiked fist if it doesn't suck
This feeling will past. But fuck me with a spiked fist if it doesn't suck
Mr2005
Don't shoot the messenger, give me the gun
- Sep 25, 2018
- 3,622
Hell no. This is why it's cruel not having an easy way out. It's a choice of pain or more pain.
wanttodie
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- Apr 19, 2018
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200_ponies
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- Apr 8, 2019
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I completely understand your feelings of impatience. I've been so impatient that I once got up in the middle of the night and parked on some train tracks just waiting for them to come and hit me so I could get it over with.
That being said, it probably is best to think up a foolproof plan, since knife wounds are really painful and rarely fatal. As much as it absolutely sucks to wait, it'll be better than ruining the attempt and ending up in a hospital with no way out.
Sometimes what helps me during these kinds of moments is to picture myself dying soon and fading away into peace. It isn't a permanent fix but it helps calm me down and relax me.
That being said, it probably is best to think up a foolproof plan, since knife wounds are really painful and rarely fatal. As much as it absolutely sucks to wait, it'll be better than ruining the attempt and ending up in a hospital with no way out.
Sometimes what helps me during these kinds of moments is to picture myself dying soon and fading away into peace. It isn't a permanent fix but it helps calm me down and relax me.
