Hi everyone,I really need some suggestions
Long story short,in 2023 my half sister diagnosed bile duct cancer,3months later my best frd commit suicide(jump off from his building),1 more month later my beloved mother got stage 4 lung cancer with crazily 20+ brain mets,even I was shocked n frightened,I still try to calm myself down to manage such horrible situation,cause we are single family and im her only child/carer,in past 16 months I spent almost all my fortune and work 7 days a week to pay for her treatment meanwhile take care of her daily life,without any family support and help,all on my own…. i was very suicidual throughout this journey but i tried my best to keep myself sane,cause I dont allow myself to leave her alone,last month she passed away cause the disease progress rapidly,I love her so much I suggested to suicide with her but she rejected,now I'm by myself with empty hands after all these efforts,no family no frd not much savings left,I really wanna end this ridicule shit,I'm seeking a easy way to do this,I can't get Nembutal in my country butI heard about exit bag with helium inhalation is a quick and painless way to do,may I ask about the details of it,like how to avoid failure?or would nitrogen be a better choice?
Long story short,in 2023 my half sister diagnosed bile duct cancer,3months later my best frd commit suicide(jump off from his building),1 more month later my beloved mother got stage 4 lung cancer with crazily 20+ brain mets,even I was shocked n frightened,I still try to calm myself down to manage such horrible situation,cause we are single family and im her only child/carer,in past 16 months I spent almost all my fortune and work 7 days a week to pay for her treatment meanwhile take care of her daily life,without any family support and help,all on my own…. i was very suicidual throughout this journey but i tried my best to keep myself sane,cause I dont allow myself to leave her alone,last month she passed away cause the disease progress rapidly,I love her so much I suggested to suicide with her but she rejected,now I'm by myself with empty hands after all these efforts,no family no frd not much savings left,I really wanna end this ridicule shit,I'm seeking a easy way to do this,I can't get Nembutal in my country butI heard about exit bag with helium inhalation is a quick and painless way to do,may I ask about the details of it,like how to avoid failure?or would nitrogen be a better choice?
