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leuzenstraat

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Jun 27, 2022
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There's something beautiful about life, when you conceive it as what it is, a short journey. The heavy burden that most if not all of us here experience, leaves away. To see the dark, quiet night, to feel the gentle wind, and to feel that everything will come to an end. To feel, as if they were present, the smiles and happiness of not only the ones you love the most, but also of other people, of other souls, you will never get to know. Ironically, it might even prompt you to live to the fullest. It's tricky.

I'm planning to leave soon. After all, that's where all that beauty resides. For me, it exists only as a compensation, so to speak. I will miss the smell of the night flowers that perfume the streets of my beautiful town, here in Spain. I will miss many things. Doesn't life feel strange, when you are walking by the shore of life, completely on your own?
 
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Darkover

Archangel
Jul 29, 2021
5,569
life is evil at the very core it's a evil universe whatever beauty it has going for it is ruined by its evilness, i just hope that when i die it's for all time because this universe has nothing going for it in the long run, i mean i would want infinite computational power otherwise imagination is always going to be better than reality and that is a huge disappointment, everything is absolutely shit and boring reality is huge let down always has been always will be, i could be free to really live if it wasn't for this shitty slow universe slow atoms slow electrons slow photons, life won't ever be anywhere near what you would want it to be
 
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Zzzzz

Zzzzz

Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
Aug 8, 2018
879
Imo life isn't short enough. I think it's very telling that for many people who are alive one of the most beautiful thoughts is that life is temporary and that it will end. I also think that without an afterlife, any good in life is ultimately unnecessary and meaningless for the individual, because nobody NEEDED to be born,not for their own sake at least.
 
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Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
785
Imo life isn't short enough.

For me, it isn't long enough. Like most suicides, I basically love life itself. What I hate is that I've totally ruined my own life, and there isn't nearly enough time to go back and get things right a second time.
 
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chloramine

Mage
Apr 18, 2022
504
i mean i would want infinite computational power otherwise imagination is always going to be better than reality and that is a huge disappointment
I can definitely see where you're coming from with this. Sometimes I feel more like that and other times I think there's a certain beauty to always being able to conceive of something better. Unfortunately the world is currently more "everything is bad and screwed up" which is more frustrating
 
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Superdeterminist

Superdeterminist

Enlightened
Apr 5, 2020
1,875
I do think there is incredible beauty in life. For me I experience this beauty mainly in the feelings of attraction. Other things like a view in nature, or the masterful skill of a player in a game, express beauty but aren't quite as awesome to me, for whatever reason.

But this beauty for me pales in comparison to the amount of suffering. The suffering totally spoils everything and makes it virtually impossible to fully enjoy even the beautiful things. Suffering has made me despise this whole enterprise of life.
 
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hellispink

hellispink

poisonous
May 26, 2022
1,229
I know life is beautiful, regardless of my pain, when I see those beautiful sunsets while reading a book or drinking coffe. When I hear the rain and I can stay in my bed wtih some soaks on. When my cats show me love, or when ai make someone else smile, biggest gift. And the birds? They sound beautiful. Animals are so kind and beautiful, even more than bad humans. Nature is something so beautiful that inpsires me. Beauty for me is writing or reading some poetry. I wish, the pain wasn't more, so we didn't had to leave this place before it was our time.
 
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Fadeawaaaay

Fadeawaaaay

Visionary
Nov 12, 2021
2,160
Life is beautiful …. I wish I had been shown how to feel safe and confident … to learn at an early age the tools for success … instead I learned to ruminate in sorrow and melancholy and helpless fear… so life is dark and frightening … the beauty overshadowed … sadly wasted
 
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Euthanza

Euthanza

Self Righteous Suicide
Jun 9, 2022
1,447
Life is a lottery, 99% made of pure luck but unfortunately most people are very bad at gamble for the lucky ones to win it all.

From genetic lottery, financial lottery to death lottery; You named it ... How many of us lucky enough on this website to have N on hands with supportive family, friends, colleagues of happy fulfilling governed life.
 
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Zzzzz

Zzzzz

Nothing compares to the bliss of death.
Aug 8, 2018
879
For me, it isn't long enough. Like most suicides, I basically love life itself. What I hate is that I've totally ruined my own life, and there isn't nearly enough time to go back and get things right a second time.

I personally cannot say I love the source of my suffering. But to each their own.
 
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waitingforrest

Elementalist
Dec 27, 2021
842
I think there is beauty, not in life, but the lasting effect things leave behind once they are gone. Knowing that even though the beach is always the beach, but the placement of each grain of sand will never be exactly the same, or the waves won't ever repeat the same pattern. Or looking at a old photo from the past and seeing all that is left of a person hundreds of years ago.
Some things and feelings can't be preserved or recreated, it always changes and moves on. Eventually, the waves will wash away all traces of footprints, and that is left behind of a person is merely memories.

Or some other deep poetic s**t can work as well.
 
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ge0rge

ge0rge

the satanic mechanic
Jul 29, 2018
659
absolutely, life is an amazing experience full of wonder and beauty, all just waiting to be experienced. it's the self that's the problem - our obsessions and fears and disappointments, or those of others inflicted on us, on a micro or macro level
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,276
I cannot see any beauty in existing. Existing just seems to be unnecessary suffering and if someone is experiencing something positive in their life, it is just something for them to lose and cause them more pain. In a life like this it feels impossible to escape from misery and dread. I do think that dying is beautiful, someone finally being free from the torture that is consciousness. To me non existence is true peace. For me personally, the only positive thing about existing is that it will end someday no matter what and that all pain is temporary
 
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leuzenstraat

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Jun 27, 2022
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I cannot see any beauty in existing. Existing just seems to be unnecessary suffering and if someone is experiencing something positive in their life, it is just something for them to lose and cause them more pain. In a life like this it feels impossible to escape from misery and dread. I do think that dying is beautiful, someone finally being free from the torture that is consciousness. To me non existence is true peace. For me personally, the only positive thing about existing is that it will end someday no matter what and that all pain is temporary
I mean, everyone on this board has implicitly stated their point of view regarding life: the final balance is negative.

However, I do see some beauty in life. Behind all the cruelty, all the malice, all the wrong things, there's a cold indifference from the universe. In that state, when you feel completely by yourself, accountable for only your deeds and thoughts, there's a dim light that you can choose to rejoice in. But it's my personal experience, that although some people may recognize, can't be forced onto others. So I can't help but affirm every single word you wrote, because they come from a real experience and for that reason totally valid.

I am leaving this night if fentanyl does its wonders. Do you know how to get my nickname strikethrough? I like that idea...
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
43,276
I am leaving this night if fentanyl does its wonders. Do you know how to get my nickname strikethrough? I like that idea
Yes, if you click on your name at the top of the page, and under 'your account', there is an option to disable your account. Thank you for creating this interesting thread and I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from your suffering.
 
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leuzenstraat

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Jun 27, 2022
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Yes, if you click on your name at the top of the page, and under 'your account', there is an option to disable your account. Thank you for creating this interesting thread and I hope that in whatever happens, you find relief from your suffering.
the pleasure is mine, all of your posts are full of humanity and compassion. I hope you find the peace you yearn for, wether it's in life or not, that's secondary
 
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