abandoning me

[Blowba]

i believe the person who i loved with my entire life just abandoned me, cutting me off from their life even though they had told me they loved me not even less than a month ago. i know that they are active online but, today when I messaged them I found myself to be blocked. The last time they had talked to me was wednesday due to my depression and what i have been going through i didnt send them a message until now. i feel broken and empty, everything just hurts so much. i was excited of us saving up money to move in together and starting our lives together. i cant help to blame myself and my mental illness that has caused problems between each other. it hurts i loved him so much i truly hate myself

 

[nitroautnz]

i believe the person who i loved with my entire life just abandoned me, cutting me off from their life even though they had told me they loved me not even less than a month ago. i know that they are active online but, today when I messaged them I found myself to be blocked. The last time they had talked to me was wednesday due to my depression and what i have been going through i didnt send them a message until now. i feel broken and empty, everything just hurts so much. i was excited of us saving up money to move in together and starting our lives together. i cant help to blame myself and my mental illness that has caused problems between each other. it hurts i loved him so much i truly hate myself

Im truly sorry for what you going through, im still in contact with the person i love the most but i can feel that my mental problems are toxic and I will eventually hurt her and push her away by wanting the opposite, i recently realized that it' what partially motivates me to ctb sooner than later.
Even if my situation is not comparable just now that your not alone.
And your mental illness is not your fault, i know it's not helping much, but you not responsible for that.

 

[BrokenLine]

Sorry this happened to you but don't hate yourself because if this. You cant control what someone else can deal with or maybe fear. I've been through a lot in my life coming on here and talking terrifies me even talking to someone going through something i'm going through either now or in the past. I'm worried i'll say or do the wrong thing making things worse for them, so I didn't say something even when I really wanted to. A couple of times I stopped coming here for a while not because anyone did anything but fear can make us at times think the worst, I don't want to make someone feel worse and by saying nothing I don't. We all react different when facing tough choices I know I can run I've said the reason why above and no its not the best decision, Why I know talk. Know you're not responsible for the choices someone else makes. Again I'm sorry you're going through this I really am.

 

[Deathbydemo]

I'm so very sorry. I wouldn't wish that kind of pain of anyone.

 

[Mixo]

I just made a post about being abandoned earlier. I know how much it hurts, it's even worse when you're debilitated in some way either mentally or physically. I think the only thing that's helped me is just knowing that people in general are capricious, selfish, and that it's just human nature. I hope you can find some better supports in your life.

 

[whywere]

HI! 1st) Do NOT EVER hate yourself becasue you have depression. I have severe depression, have had it all my life and it has made its share of problems for me with people. 2nd) Now with that said, please remember that you are a very special soul with so much to give people and yourself. We all make learning experiences through life and grow from them in a beautiful way. 3th) Technology is great BUT.BUT nothing is as great as seeing someone in the flesh that one loves. With that said if he lives close enough to you where you can call him and ask if he is willing to go get a coffee or tea with you and talk. When he looks at you and sees the beautiful you in person instead of a picture on the net or from memory and with you two talking about your depression and how HE can also help you with the depression , you both might get a much stronger bond together then you can imagine. You are a very loving and caring person, your post shows that loud and clear, and this is a moment in time that will pass with both of you lovingly working together for a lifetime of bliss. Do NOT let 1 bump in the road destory that. I care for you ALOT and only want you to have a life of happiness and love. From me and all the global family members love and peace to you!