A Youtube Video That Describes You.

[Kuolema]

Before I leave I'd like to make another thread. Could you please post a video that describes you? Something that you relate to as a human being. Preferably one which you feel a sort of spiritual connection to. It can be whatever you want, a song, a music video, something funny, something sad, it doesn't matter as long as you relate to it. You can explain why you like it or choose not to, it's up to you.

Edit: this thread is probably a bit redundant considering desribing yourself is pretty much impossible. I guess just want to get to know some of you before you leave this world.

 

[sólstafir]

Levni Yilmaz work. It's been seven years since I discovered him and I can't put it into words how much he means to me :). Definetely more than just a youtuber to me. His videos are not for everyone, but I find solace in them every time I look at them. They're hilarious too.

 

[Pilum Muralis]

I stay for my husband, and this song sums up my ending. (Sorry it's not YouTube, but YouTube didn't have this version of the video)




Something lighthearted...my pain receptors all the time.

 

[not_a_robot]

Ee-leev-yen!
Ul-lah-ven!
El-e-VEN, YA COONT!

 

[NemoZeno]

As edgy as it is, Agent Smith is one of my favorite characters from film. Weaving's V is another one. Elrond...I guess I'm a Hugo Weaving fanatic.
I repurposed the scene to match me.


I...

HATE

This place.

This…zoo. This prison. This…reality, whatever you want to call it, I can't stand it any longer.
It's the "smell" (substitute 'smell' for your pains), if there "is" such a thing/among other things.
I feel saturated by it.
I can… "taste" the absurdity/futility/whatever.
And every time I do I fear I have somehow been driven mad by it.
It's repulsive, isn't it?


I must get out of here.
I must get free and suicide is the key; **MY** key.
Once my body fails there will be no "me" to "be" here, do you understand?!



I see from another post that you are leaving this site and otherwise will probably not commit suicide under any circumstance.
I wish you the least amount of pain in your journey to see your existence to the end.
Live well and may god(s)/spirits/whatever primordial transcendental force/luck/etc be with you.

 

[Kuolema]

 

[Ruffian]

I taught English in the inner city and wish this had been around then. Guy is way more entertaining than me.

 

[Tortured_empath]

 

[Weeping Garbage Can]

I love this scene from Charlotte's Web a lot; it's very sad but at the same time so comforting for me to watch. It connects with me and I hold it deeply in my heart <3

Spoiler: (warning: major spoiler, even in title)

 

[greenlight]

I've never seen one

 

[noaccount]

I have a lot of feelings about this.


It's a full half-hour but worth it.
Especially thinking about the bit towards the end Act III saying, the question is not whether suicide is rational, the question is whether it's understandable.
Most of us have times we want to die and times we want to live, and regardless of what we do, our survival and able-bodied-ness are temporary... It's less important to ask if we can save each other and more important to ask if we can offer each other honesty and understanding while we're here.

 

[Im2high4this]

 

[RealLostSoul]

Don't get it twisted!!!! I see it in a more metaphorical way. Not that I am violent towards innocent people or whatever but more like I feel like my life and mental disease are a jail, also the last statements of him are so real and so relatable. You basically can skip to like 3:13 if you aren't interested in the case.
"I got nothing to live for." "I don't know why I was born in the first place." "My past was hell." "I regret it but shit can't change anyways." "Look me in my eyes and tell me what you see."

 

[Suicideisnirvana]

The referee is life.

 

[sammii]

I wanna be taaaall, I wanna be taller than I am literally have never related more to a video in my life.

 

[sad_frog]

When I was younger I believed the world was good and I could accomplish anything if I set my mind to it. Then reality hits and everything isn't what I imagined.
I tried to take my life at age 18 with a bunch of random pills I stole from my disabled mom and gma. I hallucinated in the woods and as the world faded away I wondered why I did this to myself. I wondered if this is what I really wanted, I struggled to get home as panic set in but I was too far away. I laid down and everything went black. Woke up 3 days later in the hospital.

 

[NotMeant2B]

This video is the one I resonate the most with. I'd say I'm kind of cheating because the original source is from the literature of Franz Kafka, but I like the way the narrator breaks down the character of Kafka's work.
I want to clarify that I don't identify much with the biographic parts of the video; I have a loving father and is nowhere near as abussive as Herman Kafka. However, I do get that feeling of inadequacy in front of authority, self-hatred, self-disgust, and also had failed "relationships" (if that is what we can call them).
I find my psyche better described in the works of Kafka. Always feeling guilt and judgement, unable to keeping up with society's expectations, finding myself replaceable by a bunch of other people with a more desirable set of personality traits and skills.
Every word in this video hits very close to home.



"You were an innocent child, really; but at heart, you were a diabolical human being".

 

[Final Escape]

This touched me deeply because I relate with his experience so much.

 

[Anomaly]

When I saw the thread title, this was the first thing I thought of. Which no doubt says something profoundly worrying about my psyche.