Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I am not good at writing these things, and all I can think is I wish the world was a kinder place that I did not have to write it.

I want to tell the forum, that one of our regulars, BlueWidow CTB early this morning. She followed Stan's guide (everybody wants to know how)

BlueWidow originally was one of Stan's crew. She talked to him, and he was her advisor.

When he passed, she came to me. First to send her condolences on my loss. We bonded. I lost Stan, and she lost her husband. Since I was newly 'widowed' so she advised me on ways to cope, as her husband passed many years ago,

We also commiserated over our various medical ailments, often playing 'can you top this.'

Blue's medical issues became too much for her to handle, and her decline came suddenly. She also never got over the loss of her husband, which I do understand. She didn't want to leave, but was at peace with her decision and was ready.

Blue didn't want a goodbye thread. She just asked me to write a tribute.

We will always remember BlueWidow for her kind words, emotional support, and shoulder to cry on when we needed it.

She wanted me to tell you all how much that this forum was everything to her. She loved the people on it, and finally felt accepted and understood.

She told me that she would miss everybody here, but was so ready to be reunited with her beloved husband Jerry and to meet Stan in person.

Sleep tight Bluewidow. You were loved and you will be remembered and missed. Thank you for making our lives a little brighter with your presence.

I am here to answer the millions of questions that may pop up if I didn't answer them above.

@SinisterKid. She wanted me to thank you.

Giphy
 
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Thereisnothing

Thereisnothing

Enlightened
Jan 4, 2020
1,604
Oh no not another beautiful soul gone and she was truly beautiful................right from the moment i joined here she made me so welcome and feel at home................sorry this is short...............having job to take news in................. :'( ..................rest in peace sweetheart....................you'll be terribly missed but am happy for you that you have found peace xx:heart:
 
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Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
She will be missed greatly :(
 
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new life

new life

Experienced
Feb 11, 2020
276
What actually happened. I hope she is at peace.
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
She definitely will be missed. So many well thought out long and beautiful posts and so willing to talk. If not for me being at work now and needing to maintain composure I would want to write a book. But I can't. So I won't. And will just say that those that see her posts will recognize her in a heartbeat. And all can tell she'll be missed.
 
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LMLN

LMLN

Paragon
Aug 10, 2019
929
Oh no! I'm glad she is at peace, but will miss her so much. As will everyone here. She is a beautiful soul and I hope she is with her beloved Jerry as we speak.
Rest in peace beautiful Bluewidow. ❤
 
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Quarky00

Quarky00

Enlightened
Dec 17, 2019
1,956
One of the sweetest smartest people here . She always took the words out of my mouth and expressed it better . She balanced everything delicately and with much sensitivity , understanding all perspectives and feelings , probably better than anyone else . That's a small thing that should tell a lot about her beautiful soul . She could really deeply understand anyone and anything . And I found that remarkable . One of the most empathic people I've ever seen in my life .

Almost a mythical creature to me .

A real big loss to this place, and I'm sad (selfish) . But happy she found peace :heart:
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
Oh no! I'm glad she is at peace, but will miss her so much. As will everyone here. She is a beautiful soul and I hope she is with her beloved Jerry as we speak.
Rest in peace beautiful Bluewidow. ❤
We do understand.
 
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Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
Rip BlueWidow❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
 
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Root

Student
Sep 15, 2019
117
I'm glad she found peace. Rest in peace. :heart:
 
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MysticPerception

MysticPerception

I'm back and I'll still smile for you
Dec 31, 2019
1,252
I'm happy for her. She's finally free from all of her pain, her brain fog, and her grieving. She can finally be happy again without having to worry about things constantly. I'm giving her a big smile over here to let her know I'm okay. I know she wouldn't want us to be sad at her passing. I know I wouldn't want people to be sad at my passing anyway. Just in case she ever reads this thread, I love you Blue hope you're having fun now :heart:.
 
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cosmicpixiedust

cosmicpixiedust

Pixie
Jun 5, 2019
972
I can't formulate thoughts into words about this right now after it all, but I will be back. RIP BlueWidow
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,820
Rip BlueWidow :aw: and I remember her kindness and support on my threads as well as posts. She will be missed. I do feel some comfort in knowing that she found peace and has passed (hopefully) in a dignified manner and no longer suffering.
 
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Ghost2211

Archangel
Jan 20, 2020
6,017
She was a wonderful person. I will miss her. I'm sad to see her go, but am glad she found peace.
 
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xBrialesana

xBrialesana

Become Dust With Me, My Love.
Dec 17, 2019
552
Thank you so much for writing this so eloquently and perfectly @Jean4 . RIP BlueWidow. I'm shocked and selfishly saddened but relieved if peace was finally achieved. After being there for so many others she finally gets rest and no more anguish.
 
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Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

Enlightened
Mar 5, 2019
1,030
Shone a light on the darkness faced by so many while she lived that darkness too.
I hope there is now only peace for you our sister, and the light you shone on us now comes to you and your pain and sorrow are no more.
Love and respect sister.
R.I.P
 
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Iloveyouall

Iloveyouall

Mage
Feb 12, 2020
501
I wish I knew her, she seemed like a beautiful person. May you rest in peace Bluewidow.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I know sorry i misread it first time. Sorry for any upset caused.
No worries. If you have any questions about Stan's guide, feel free to ask. :heart:
 
new life

new life

Experienced
Feb 11, 2020
276
No worries. If you have any questions about Stan's guide, feel free to ask. :heart:
I did not know what stans guide was thats why i asked, sorry once again.
 
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Soulless_Angel

Soulless_Angel

existence is futile
Jul 10, 2019
2,225
I knew she was struggling, I was watching her story from a distance, this is a heartbreaking read, but clearly she felt this was right for her. I hope she is happy where she is now and can find peace again
Much love to her and her memory ;-;;-;:heart::heart:
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
I did not know what stans guide was thats why i asked, sorry once again.
I apologize. Most people know what that is :) it's SN
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/
 
highlyvolatile

highlyvolatile

I don't know anymore.
Feb 14, 2020
278
I didnt get the chance to know her but im glad she's at peace. :heart:
 
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new life

new life

Experienced
Feb 11, 2020
276
I apologize. Most people know what that is :) it's SN
https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/
No need to apologise lovely.
 
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Deleted member 14177

not home
Jan 20, 2020
346
RIP BlueWidow. :heart::heart:
 
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Morphinekiss

Enlightened
Jun 8, 2019
1,207
I still have no words, just tears that threaten to spill over. I'll be toasting her tonight with her favorite hot buttered rum. Anyone remember her favorite pizza toppings? I know she got one often.
 
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lostangel

lostangel

Enlightened
Mar 22, 2019
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I didn't know her but I hope she is in a better place.
 
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