bandoscii
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- Jun 29, 2024
- 35
I just had a conversation with mom. Her mostly doing the conversation and talking about her problems at work. I don't remember how the conversation shifted to be about therapists.
She went into such a rant about her last therapist when I said that she just had a bad one. Good ones try to at least offer some coping techniques and actual therapy, not just hearing you talking about problems.
I was just sitting there and listening how the closest to me person kept telling how much therapists are useless, that they won't ever help you, they will just listen to you and your crying, say "there, there" and that's all. No therapist will ever help you cope with your situation, they won't change anything ever. You have to do it yourself, in your head.
I can't describe how much it was painful to hear. I tried so much to solve this "in my head", by myself and I really can't. And hearing my mom just say that no one will able to help me change that is just heartbreaking. Like I'm a lost cause. I won't be able to ever stop thinking about dying.
I'm really trying but with each day it seems more and more hopeless and seems it's just a matter of time when I'll snap and finally ctb.
She went into such a rant about her last therapist when I said that she just had a bad one. Good ones try to at least offer some coping techniques and actual therapy, not just hearing you talking about problems.
I was just sitting there and listening how the closest to me person kept telling how much therapists are useless, that they won't ever help you, they will just listen to you and your crying, say "there, there" and that's all. No therapist will ever help you cope with your situation, they won't change anything ever. You have to do it yourself, in your head.
I can't describe how much it was painful to hear. I tried so much to solve this "in my head", by myself and I really can't. And hearing my mom just say that no one will able to help me change that is just heartbreaking. Like I'm a lost cause. I won't be able to ever stop thinking about dying.
I'm really trying but with each day it seems more and more hopeless and seems it's just a matter of time when I'll snap and finally ctb.