Hello, my dear SS fellows!
I hope you're doing great! In my case, I finally am! After almost half a year, I'm finally allowed to go to my apartment and be alone at peace with nobody bothering me.
It was a looooong journey after my failed CTB attempt but here I am!
What I wanna tell you is that even if you fail to ctb and lose your freedom and end up living with your parents just like me, you will be able to get that freedom back! How? Well, unfortunately I had to lie to my therapist, psychiatrist and father about living. They think I love life and will die as an old grey man but the truth is I'll kill myself next year. I wish being honest worked but it doesn't. If you people like us are frank, we end up in a psych ward.
Meanwhile, What am I doing? Well, I'm having lots of booze (champagne on the rocks) of course! I've also started to work out so as not to gain so many pounds.
I guess the point of my post is to tell you that "it's not over." I had lost everything and now I'm winning back most of my freedom, which will allow me to finally CTB or if I fail, end up in a psych ward for maaaaanyyyyy years!
Do not mistake my thread with some pro-lifer BS. I still wanna CTB. Let's say I'm just enjoying the moment. After all, I only have a few months left to live.
Anyway, cheers to you, who make my days brighter because you do understand people like me.
Los of hugs and love for everybody!
I hope you're doing great! In my case, I finally am! After almost half a year, I'm finally allowed to go to my apartment and be alone at peace with nobody bothering me.
It was a looooong journey after my failed CTB attempt but here I am!
What I wanna tell you is that even if you fail to ctb and lose your freedom and end up living with your parents just like me, you will be able to get that freedom back! How? Well, unfortunately I had to lie to my therapist, psychiatrist and father about living. They think I love life and will die as an old grey man but the truth is I'll kill myself next year. I wish being honest worked but it doesn't. If you people like us are frank, we end up in a psych ward.
Meanwhile, What am I doing? Well, I'm having lots of booze (champagne on the rocks) of course! I've also started to work out so as not to gain so many pounds.
I guess the point of my post is to tell you that "it's not over." I had lost everything and now I'm winning back most of my freedom, which will allow me to finally CTB or if I fail, end up in a psych ward for maaaaanyyyyy years!
Do not mistake my thread with some pro-lifer BS. I still wanna CTB. Let's say I'm just enjoying the moment. After all, I only have a few months left to live.
Anyway, cheers to you, who make my days brighter because you do understand people like me.
Los of hugs and love for everybody!
