Yeah, that's what I mean. 5 minutes is a LONG time. All I meant about the journalists is the possibility they either know something else or aren't giving the full story. I don't have lots of friends on here, but I've spoken with enough young members to know the pressure to have a career now is horrible. Plus she funded that trip and it was a failure? Isn't failing a million times before you discover something meaningful a huge part of research in the sciences? Maybe we need to address this quest for success and perfection as a society. And that material success and recognition doesn't equal satisfaction. Stacking cans at a grocery store isn't satisfaction, but it eats up very little emotional energy so you can do what you love when you're not at work. I wish I hadn't spent 1/3 of my life studying to spend close to the next 2/3 of my life hating my career. Now, do I try for my 3rd dream/motivation l 've always wanted, or just phone home? I also feel like a misfit everywhere, even here sometimes,