ReincarnatedGibbon
seed-sower
- May 25, 2025
- 12
i joined this forum a few days ago (had been lurking for a while tho) cause i was planning on ctbing very soon, and wanted to talk a bit with people going through the same thing.
i attempted yesterday, but the guilt overwhelmed me. I live with my sorta-ex gf, and i just couldn't stand the thought of her finding my body and having to go through that.
i went to the psych, and they barely did anything (expected), but they gave me an appointment soon where possibly maybe something would be done but idk i hate the psychiatric system.
ok, but then i've gone to stay with my mom for some time, and it's like she finally understands me and treats me well. I still have a hard time trusting her, but it feels like things are going in the right direction.
basically, i'm little bit hopeful ! so gonna put the ctb plans on hold. still gonna stay active here tho. this forum actually helps a lot. it's hard to find spaces where suicidality isn't shameful, but isn't encouraged either.
sorry for the ramble. don't know why i'm posting it. i'm just happier rn than i've been in a long time, and it's in part thanks to this forum<3
much love
i attempted yesterday, but the guilt overwhelmed me. I live with my sorta-ex gf, and i just couldn't stand the thought of her finding my body and having to go through that.
i went to the psych, and they barely did anything (expected), but they gave me an appointment soon where possibly maybe something would be done but idk i hate the psychiatric system.
ok, but then i've gone to stay with my mom for some time, and it's like she finally understands me and treats me well. I still have a hard time trusting her, but it feels like things are going in the right direction.
basically, i'm little bit hopeful ! so gonna put the ctb plans on hold. still gonna stay active here tho. this forum actually helps a lot. it's hard to find spaces where suicidality isn't shameful, but isn't encouraged either.
sorry for the ramble. don't know why i'm posting it. i'm just happier rn than i've been in a long time, and it's in part thanks to this forum<3
much love
