A phrase I dont understand

[RedLightMoments]

I have a friend who has been trying to help me for a while and says things like "If this is truly it for you why don't you just quit everything and go travel and then do it you would have nothing to lose." My response to this why does it matter to travel if its the same destination? The whole point of traveling is to look back on good times really and I'm hopefully not gonna be alive to remember these times. It feels like its just attempt to try to make me value life by traveling. I am not mad at them its just frustrating because they can't understand the desire for nothing.

 

[theboy]

is the last wish

 

[Lulzacruel]

It feels like its just attempt to try to make me value life by traveling

it feels like it because it is an attempt to make you value life

just do what you love, maybe go to your favorite or childhood places or anywhere that gives you any good memories at all

 

[FuneralCry]

People like that sound irritating to me, they just don't wish to accept that death is preferable for so many who exist here as that thought scares them. I cannot stand those who worship and glorify something so harmful and unnecessary as existence to the point that they push these views onto other people.

 

[RedLightMoments]

it feels like it because it is an attempt to make you value life

just do what you love, maybe go to your favorite or childhood places or anywhere that gives you any good memories at all

I don't know I dont think of I am incapable of enjoying things I like its just I am not really satisfied with them ever. Like even in moments I am having a "good time" if you asked me "Hey do you want to die now" I can confidentially say "Yeah I do" because I know good times come to an end and majority of time is not a good time.

 

[ChantDuCygne]

I think I know how you feel. I can't count the number of times people have suggested that I try going to theme parks, movies, even to church. I'm sorry, people, for not getting a kick out of socializing and bragging about how I am loved by the "eyes above". Idc where you want to take me. Wherever I go, I see people who smile. I wonder if they had good parents. I wonder if they are loved. I wonder if they have ever felt helpless at any point in their lives. When I see couples walking down the street, it reminds me that I will never have that. I can't see people without being reminded that they were luckier than me.

I often find things to occupy myself, but I can't say anything has kept me satisfied or motivated for longer than four days (as of late). I've tried playing photograph, making videos, writing music… and I know travelling wouldn't help because my mother took me to Europe when I was little and it wasn't very exciting to me. I don't have any ideas left so I don't know what to do. Anyways, I hope you'll find peace, whether it be in life or in death.

 

[Takamagahara]

I tried it, exactly once. It's different from person to person; some people love travelling for the sake of it.

I only like traveling when I'm with people I like because it turns the experience of exploration into a social event that becomes a memory. Traveling by myself only made me feel worse because I had no one to share it with.