Venting A person i know just CTB

[catbunny]

Rest in peace.

I heard that they jumped off the bridge 3 or 4 days ago, I don't remember clearly. I know why they did that, I understand that they were suffering too.

Maybe I'm glad for them that they finally escaped from this horrible world. But at the same time, I can't help the feeling of being so fucking jealous. Everytime I heard about someone dying. I feel so jealous that they can die but I can not. I can't just die even if I tried so I feel so unfair. No matter how hard I tried, nothing is going right even CTB.

 

[Afterglow]

I don't think we should romanticize the dead or envy them. I think they're people to mourn.

It's horrible that people have to endure hardships so awful that it pushes them to take their own life.

We should respect their decision, and mourn the situations and the pain they endured to lead them to that point.

 

[catbunny]

I don't think we should romanticize the dead or envy them. I think they're people to mourn.

It's horrible that people have to endure hardships so awful that it pushes them to take their own life.

We should respect their decision, and mourn the situations and the pain they endured to lead them to that point.

I know I shouldn't feel that way I am feeling but its just the feeling that i cant stop.

When i said glad, i mean its for specificly that person I know, honestly I'm just glad they dont have to keep suffering from their pain, cause from what i know, what people did to them was pretty bad and even my friends were indirectly bullied them.

Its sad that people treat them that way and its horrible but i understand why they did that even if its not fair, its how the society works. Also this country dont any way or very hard to get a proper help. So yeah thats probably their only option to stop the pain. There is no such thing as recovery here. Sounds like hell because it is.

 

[isthisthingon]

Rest in peace.

I heard that they jumped off the bridge 3 or 4 days ago, I don't remember clearly. I know why they did that, I understand that they were suffering too.

Maybe I'm glad for them that they finally escaped from this horrible world. But at the same time, I can't help the feeling of being so fucking jealous. Everytime I heard about someone dying. I feel so jealous that they can die but I can not. I can't just die even if I tried so I feel so unfair. No matter how hard I tried, nothing is going right even CTB.

I also feel a bit jealous, such a weird feeling. Happy they were able to accomplish what they set out to do. They found their peace.

 

[LittleJem]

I get jealous. I don't think we can help it, it's just our natural response because of how suicidal we are.

Right now, I feel just empty, but that is because of what I've taken today. My general response is always jealous.

And wish for their peace.