My first post on this site and I'm desperately hoping for help. Nearly two years ago I had a serious heart problem and was 'saved' by heart surgery but have been left alive but completely dependent on my wife for physical support as I can do virtually nothing for myself and need complete care as I am physically so weak. I wasn't in a good state before that as I was suffering from severe arthritis in my hands and elbows especially and chronic back pain due to an injury earlier in my life. I used to be a classical singer but intubation during surgery has ruined my voice so now I can't even communicate with others properly. Recently my wife has been diagnosed with a serious and possibly life threatening illness and without her I cannot see how I would live or any reason for doing so. I am scared witless and my only hope is that I can find a way out if I'm left alone. Last week we had to put our dear old dog to sleep as she had bone cancer. The Vet gave her a sedative so she drifted off to sleep before the injection which stopped her heart. It was a peaceful and pain free end for her but no-one will do the same for me which is what I would choose if I lose my wife. I have a stock of painkillers, sleeping tablets and blood thinning pills but I don't know how much or what to use. The drugs I have are tramadol, zopiclone, diazepam, edoxaban and bisiprolol plus codeine, aspirin and paracetamol of course. I'm also prescribed metaclopramide for nausea which is an anti-emetic. I don't normally drink alcohol but can obviously get that too. I live in the UK.
Aries
Student
- Jun 14, 2023
- 109
Seriously no one has answered him yet????
But if that's fast acting. In a matter of minutes... .I'm definetly in for it
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 38,889
That sounds really horrible what you have to endure, I find it so inhumane how animals are allowed a dignified death in peace but yet humans are expected to suffer endlessly. But anyway best wishes.
angel31
sause
- Jun 14, 2023
- 255
…I sadly dont know much about meds but ODing on medication is generally not recommended… I hope u find something though and that everything works out well for u, im sending u all the love in the world <333
Thank you for caring.
Oh dear. I was hoping there might be an answer using the drugs I have access to. I can't get street drugs of any kind as I can't travel and wouldn't know where to look anyway. Thank you for your kind words and thoughts.
I couldn't agree more. I'm facing a living nightmare if I'm left alone whereas our dog passed peacefully and surrounded with love. If only I could hope for the same.... Thank you for your kind thoughts and good wishes.
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Sweet Tart
Arcanist
- May 10, 2023
- 452
It sounds like you are going thru so much. I'm so sorry about losing your dog and stress while waiting to learn more about your wife's diagnosis.
Sadly, it is not easy to find a peaceful way out. I wish for the same. Explore the site, especially the pinned resources on methods, there is a tremendous amount of information. There is also a lot of emotional support available here.
Sadly, it is not easy to find a peaceful way out. I wish for the same. Explore the site, especially the pinned resources on methods, there is a tremendous amount of information. There is also a lot of emotional support available here.
!MIA!
Member
- Jul 10, 2023
- 15
I've OD'd a couple of times now- attempt related and not. Death on an OD is always tedious.
Anti-emetic is a positive insurance for you in this case. Take it an hour before or so.
Here's are the major problems though:
1. Time- depending on what you take, and how much you take of it, the effects could take minutes to hours to kick in.
2. Environment- help should not be accessible, there are a variety of ways to save someone from an overdose, and you'll definitely have some time before you actually ctb.
3. Medication- I haven't taken the time to look into your personal pills, but finding out what they do to your body in high doses should come before anything. Overdosing on a pain reliever will feel different than a heart medication. If you had access to a sleeping medication, so far, that has been the most peaceful/least painful way for me (but your dosage for ctb might have to be large)
On a personal note, and a more minor problem- swallowing.
After 10 pills my throat feels tighter, and thoughts of incoming ctb make worse. Like SI is kicking in almost.
Rest assured, it's more of a psychosomatic problem than anything else. Your throat does not actually close up.
*Important!! If you can't swallow for a medical reason, or taking the medication becomes uncomfortable, you can always crush and dissolve the pills into a light liquid. I'd simply recommend water.
Alcohol is a bonus, as it shouldn't be mixed with most medication. But you don't want another reason to be nauseated, so find your pace.
I'd say some preparation is due before the deed is done. I wish you and your wife the best of luck! ♡
