Help A month has left

[Ssrejisser]

In a month my boyfriend will leave for a couple of days, which gives me enough time to do something with myself and not be found by him. I just need ideas as to how to do it, methods. Maybe overdose? What drugs? Anyway, thank you for any help you can provide.

 

[Xerxes]

I suggest breaking up with the boyfriend before you do the deed.

 

[Jane Doe]

I suggest breaking up with the boyfriend before you do the deed.

I second this

 

[Empty Smile]

I second this

I third this.

Also, OD'ing? No. It's a recipe for failure.

 

[TheCrow]

I third this.

Also, OD'ing? No. It's a recipe for failure.

I agree. I tried to OD on heroin and I just ended up nodding out on my leg and cutting off the circulation and now I can't walk. I also went into kidney failure and had to get dialysis for awhile. You can get all the stuff you need for the nitrogen/exit bag method together in a month.

 

[GhostedToast]

I suggest breaking up with the boyfriend before you do the deed.

i fourth this
Also dont try to OD it likely wont work and leave you worse off. Probably try partial suspension hanging.

 

[Ssrejisser]

I suggest breaking up with the boyfriend before you do the deed.

I can go to a hotel to ctb. I can't break up with my boyfriend though.

 

[Ssrejisser]

I agree. I tried to OD on heroin and I just ended up nodding out on my leg and cutting off the circulation and now I can't walk. I also went into kidney failure and had to get dialysis for awhile. You can get all the stuff you need for the nitrogen/exit bag method together in a month.

Thank you. I am still searching for a method. I was thinking nitrogen, but honestly don't know where to buy the right tube for the tank. Also where to store these things... I read about nembutal and it seems easy. I am probably wrong because this stuff isn't easy. But I am trying to look into it more.

 

[Ssrejisser]

i fourth this
Also dont try to OD it likely wont work and leave you worse off. Probably try partial suspension hanging.

Thanks for the reply.

 

[TheCrow]

Thank you. I am still searching for a method. I was thinking nitrogen, but honestly don't know where to buy the right tube for the tank. Also where to store these things... I read about nembutal and it seems easy. I am probably wrong because this stuff isn't easy. But I am trying to look into it more.

I bought the tube/regular from max dog, which is INSANELY overpriced, but idgaf. Idk if you are in the States or not, and what kind of regulator you'd considering buying, but I'm fairly certain you just need a standard oxygen tube (that's what comes with the max dog kit), something like this: https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B00P...xygen+tube+2.1+m#immersive-view_1545709115588

 

[TheCrow]

This is mine:

 

[Ssrejisser]

I bought the tube/regular from max dog, which is INSANELY overpriced, but idgaf. Idk if you are in the States or not, and what kind of regulator you'd considering buying, but I'm fairly certain you just need a standard oxygen tube (that's what comes with the max dog kit), something like this: https://www.amazon.com/gp/aw/d/B00P...xygen+tube+2.1+m#immersive-view_1545709115588

Thanks. I am in the US. I might go with nembutal after all. It's somehow more comforting. I am reading all the threads I can find on it, educating myself.

 

[TheCrow]

Thanks. I am in the US. I might go with nembutal after all. It's somehow more comforting. I am reading all the threads I can find on it, educating myself.

Oh, for sure. I totally get that. Whatever path you choose, good luck.

 

[LostBoy]

I don't understand why you can't break up with your boyfriend before you CTB, surly it has to be the right thing to do as he will be devastated when you die anyway atleast splitting up puts some distance between you both.
Or you could just not CTB, although I have no idea what your reasons are for not wanting to live.

 

[Ssrejisser]

Oh, for sure. I totally get that. Whatever path you choose, good luck.

Thank you for kind words.

 

[Ssrejisser]

I don't understand why you can't break up with your boyfriend before you CTB, surly it has to be the right thing to do as he will be devastated when you die anyway atleast splitting up puts some distance between you both.
Or you could just not CTB, although I have no idea what your reasons are for not wanting to live.

It's very complicated. I don't know what else to write at this time.

 

[Ssrejisser]

I don't understand why you can't break up with your boyfriend before you CTB, surly it has to be the right thing to do as he will be devastated when you die anyway atleast splitting up puts some distance between you both.
Or you could just not CTB, although I have no idea what your reasons are for not wanting to live.

I am broken. Not like everybody else, one day in one second something happened to me that made me different from who I was before. Something in my body or brain just clicked, broke, and I feel I became different. Somebody on this forum wrote they are half retarded, well I feel like that too, even though people say I am not. They see me as there is nothing wrong with me, just tell me that I am quiet. Well that's because of whatever happened to me. I wish I was my old me before this accident. I wish I could live like everyone else. But I feel I won't be able to. It's so sad, and I am only 26. But this isn't life anymore.

 

[Ssrejisser]

I don't understand why you can't break up with your boyfriend before you CTB, surly it has to be the right thing to do as he will be devastated when you die anyway atleast splitting up puts some distance between you both.
Or you could just not CTB, although I have no idea what your reasons are for not wanting to live.

I love my boyfriend very much, and I don't want to leave him. Again, I wish this accident would have never happened and I wasn't the way I am now.

 

[LostBoy]

I love my boyfriend very much, and I don't want to leave him. Again, I wish this accident would have never happened and I wasn't the way I am now.

Where you have life you have hope, with your boyfriend you can gain strength and direction and hopefully find the power to get through this, remember you only have to be you so just try to relax and be yourself. Talk to your boyfriend about these feelings he might be a world of strength and or contact a local helpline. Just because you now feel different inside this might pass or become your new normal and in time you may accept this and not fear it, please choose life. My son took his life this year, he had no real problems he just gave up, whilst I try to understand and hope he in a better place I wished he had reached out. I wish you the very best in life.
Be you for you and remember no one is perfect.

 

[Ssrejisser]

Where you have life you have hope, with your boyfriend you can gain strength and direction and hopefully find the power to get through this, remember you only have to be you so just try to relax and be yourself. Talk to your boyfriend about these feelings he might be a world of strength and or contact a local helpline. Just because you now feel different inside this might pass or become your new normal and in time you may accept this and not fear it, please choose life. My son took his life this year, he had no real problems he just gave up, whilst I try to understand and hope he in a better place I wished he had reached out. I wish you the very best in life.
Be you for you and remember no one is perfect.

Thank you for the kind words and I am sorry about your son. I will let the holidays pass and then we'll see. Life is hard though.

 

[LostBoy]

Thank you for the kind words and I am sorry about your son. I will let the holidays pass and then we'll see. Life is hard though.

I have no doubt life is hard and I have no idea about your circumstances but living gives you some opportunity to chose a path and to perhaps have people to lean on but death, well no one knows if its better or worse and it will come to us all in the end but why rush into it if there is a chance of happiness here for a while at least.
Stay strong and believe kn yourself.