Story A different kind of suicide note?

[Orangee]

I just thought of this idea, and I'm really happy with myself for coming up with it. I'll try to keep this short ^^

Some backstory:
I've been playing piano ever since I could remember, and it had always gotten me through the hardest points in life. I've also made my biggest decisions whilst practicing piano: my first suicide attempt, multiple breakups, and major life choices. I honestly love it so much, and I'm kind of sad that I didn't pursue it more, and instead settled for a more "stable" career path. Even then, it is still a major part of my life and playing music is one of the only things that is worth living for at this point.

I was trying to improve on my suicide note the other day, and honestly just felt so drained and tired. I didn't want anyone to be left out, but that meant writing a letter for every single person in my life and it was just so stressful and I ended up deleting them because they didn't feel genuine enough. So now I'm just writing occasionally about my thoughts so that people know it was something chronic and not something they could've done anything about.

I'll get to the point soon I swear.

I then got the idea of recording my favorite pieces and add all of them to a file, and that would be my final goodbye to this world. I like this because it would give my loved ones something to hold onto and remember, especially since throughout my childhood, the sound of me practicing piano could be heard practically every day.

So I'm going to do that and then hopefully find a way to cbt whilst getting that done.



Thanks for hanging around, have a nice day :)

(pun intended)

 

[fleetingnight]

I'm so sorry you're suffering enough to even be at this point, I really wish things could be better, but I think that's a lovely idea. Sometimes there are better ways to communicate than words. Good luck with everything, I hope you find the relief you need<3

 

[Felodese]

That does sound really lovely. A really nice idea.

 

[worthIess]

that sounds nice :)

 

[final_countdown12]

Sounds creative and love the idea just try to make sure your family understands the reasons of CTB and that there was nothing else that could be done.
Overall i found very beautiful i wish i could be talented and creative to leave this more poesy alike message instead of my prose classical hard letter. It took me almost more than a month to write all letters, not an easy/pleasant task, but extremely necessary for the loved ones.
Wish i could hear your music too lol

 

[Raven2]

I like this idea very sweet

 

[justcallmeJ]

I love the idea <3

 

[Orangee]

Thank you all so much for your kind words <3

Wish i could hear your music too lol

When I finish recording it all, I'll try to post the audio files here if it's allowed <3

I'm so sorry you're suffering enough to even be at this point, I really wish things could be better, but I think that's a lovely idea. Sometimes there are better ways to communicate than words. Good luck with everything, I hope you find the relief you need<3

Thank you very much <3

 

[LunarLight]

Sounds lovely! I'd love to hear it.

 

[SilentSadness]

That's a nice idea, it's kind to think about others like that.

 

[caliban]

Your post really touched me, because i love to listen to calssical music, and i have faced the same problem with suicide notes. Not learning to play an instrument is one of my biggest regrets.
I really like your idea, and i think it's really not necessary to write a note to everyone. In my opinion a suicide note should be just as a normal farewell.
I wish you the best! I will surely listen to you playing if you uload it!