5am train (trigger warning, graphic)

[Jen0804]

Hi all

I'm desperate and I never thought I'd have the guts to do train I'm really just so desperate and have planned to lay on tracks in seven hours

Is there a way for me to do this and cause less impact on the driver- it will still be dark and I was thinking of covering or wrapping myself in black refuse sacks and using a very secluded part of tracks in the countryside

 

[JimFord99]

Hey, do not train you., please do not. Think of the impact your actions have on the driver. There are more peaceful and cleaner ways to close the book ..

 

[Soul]

Oh my lovely @Jen0804 - I'm very sorry you're struggling and that you're contemplating this.

Wrapping yourself in something dark like some bags will no doubt make you harder to see, but my understanding is that it won't save the driver much. They'll still know they've had a collision and I think they have to stop and find out what. In that respect choosing a *very* secluded spot might just mean they'll have to wait longer for the police and coroner to arrive.

But I'm not sure of all that, and I'm more concerned about *you*. Are you sure, sweetheart? that this is the right time and the right way for you to go?

(((Hugs)))

 

[Dawn0071111]

IS there a reason why you have chosen the train? Is there no other available method for you?

 

[JimFord99]

Brutal way to go ...

 

[hadenough]

Hi all

I'm desperate and I never thought I'd have the guts to do train I'm really just so desperate and have planned to lay on tracks in seven hours

Is there a way for me to do this and cause less impact on the driver- it will still be dark and I was thinking of covering or wrapping myself in black refuse sacks and using a very secluded part of tracks in the countryside

Trains are a bad option. I've heard that it's not necessarily immediate and people have survived for a long time afterward in pain.

 

[ImSorryEmma]

If you do the training method, the driver can potentially get PTSD unless he/she is used to that kind of stuff and it happens quite often, so the method is not quite favorable at least to me, Is there another method you can try like hanging, SN, jumping, etc. You should try to do another method other than this one if you can, if the only method you are for sure is the only way out is by train then I would say go for it, that is no other method is possible for you.

 

[JimFord99]

SN, it is clean, reliable and cheap.

 

[Mortalscreensaver]

I'm in the same mind space as you with this right now. I understand

 

[JimFord99]

Love that

 

[Jen0804]

Oh my lovely @Jen0804 - I'm very sorry you're struggling and that you're contemplating this.

Wrapping yourself in something dark like some bags will no doubt make you harder to see, but my understanding is that it won't save the driver much. They'll still know they've had a collision and I think they have to stop and find out what. In that respect choosing a *very* secluded spot might just mean they'll have to wait longer for the police and coroner to arrive.

But I'm not sure of all that, and I'm more concerned about *you*. Are you sure, sweetheart? that this is the right time and the right way for you to go?

(((Hugs)))

You've always been good to me Soul xx I appreciate that (and you) so much

I burst into tears reading your comment because I guess I'm not ready or sure but at the same time I've been saying that for too long and I'm still here and suffering losing the battle every day/ week

I just think what am I doing here still why don't I get it over and done with ? I tried so hard to fix my problems and life in the past six months and it's all been for nothing ... I need to die ...... I'm an old tired soul and I have nothing left to do here and nothing left to live for just pain and declining health and nobody cares about me , trust me

Only strangers online seem to care and get it

My blood/ family , nobody no friends get it

It's my fault my life ended this way

So much pain, so much pain

Sorry for me rambling

Sending love your way soul

I'm in the same mind space as you with this right now. I understand

Sorry you understand it pal

:(
I live opposite the tracks and the crossing is closed off right now with workmen there doing some work on the tracks

I'm waiting for them to be done but I'm guessing they will be there for some time to come yet

Trains have been cancelled and have bus replacement

I'm listening through window and it's still going on and on some mechanical work

That means the spot further where I'm a planning to go will also have no trains until tomorrow

Damn it