36 hours

[theresonlyonewayout]

Anyone want to have a smidge of fun and guess what 36 hours relates to??

 

[medjooled11]

Death.

 

[som1]

36 hours before you drink the magical potion that will bring u peace?

 

[little helpers]

I know that feeling well when I just want people to pull words out of my mouth… cuz I won't say anything otherwise. no matter how eager I am to share, I just won't. unless they try with me over and over and show to me with their patience that they mean it. sometimes I leave hints, desperately wishing someone will pick up on it, and speak for me the secret I so not want to keep.

perhaps that's how you're feeling too. Idk. either way, we're all here for you, OP. update however much or little as you wish during this 36 hours. I believe we all will listen.

 

[FuneralCry]

If you are planning to ctb, and your decision is to leave, then I hope you find freedom from all suffering. I wish I was leaving soon, I always long for an eternal, dreamless sleep. I wish you the best.

 

[theresonlyonewayout]

Not CTB time just yet but thanks for the kind words.

Nope, 36 hours was the time it took for the Samaritans to reply to me (they say 24 hours max). So yeah, I tried to 'get help'. I'm so stupid, don't know why I bother trying.

Oh and this is the email I got back. Bear in mind, the first rule of PTSD club - don't trigger the person unnecessarily (do no harm):-



I'm done.

 

[gottago222]

whatever decision you make, i respect it. if you want to talk to someone on your final day im here