Story 3 years later and things have just gotten worse

[Geodude77]

I'm not gonna get too indepth with this but three years ago I started to experience chronic chest pain. Initially I was extremely anxious about the condition and caused me to isolate and as a result my grades collapsed. The doctors never found anything and would blame it on cardiophobia. I was left feeling completely depressed and hopeless. I felt like I couldn't do anything. Then I discovered this place. I was afraid of actually committing to the act of suicide but would always have thoughts considering my circumstances: very low grades, undiagnosed condition, no job, don't talk to friends at all, and overall just a lack of control over the direction of my life. Over the years the condition got worse. At least my grades are better. I pushed through thinking that things would change eventually, that one day I'll be free from this. That hasn't happened yet. Worst part, I've gotten new problems like muscle loss (despite working out and gaining weight) and erectile dysfunction (the tip doesn't get hard). Plus my social life is practically non-existent. Only friends I talk to are some of my internet friends and friends at the club I (rarely if ever) go to at my college. And most of the time I'm alone in my room both when I'm home and when I'm at my dorm in college. I'm going to see my doctor in about three days. I'm going to tell him about all of this. I doubt it will do anything since telling him has never done anything for me. I'm probably just gonna live the rest of my life like this. The suicidal thoughts have come back and they might just win this time.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I'm not gonna get too indepth with this but three years ago I started to experience chronic chest pain. Initially I was extremely anxious about the condition and caused me to isolate and as a result my grades collapsed. The doctors never found anything and would blame it on cardiophobia. I was left feeling completely depressed and hopeless. I felt like I couldn't do anything. Then I discovered this place. I was afraid of actually committing to the act of suicide but would always have thoughts considering my circumstances: very low grades, undiagnosed condition, no job, don't talk to friends at all, and overall just a lack of control over the direction of my life. Over the years the condition got worse. At least my grades are better. I pushed through thinking that things would change eventually, that one day I'll be free from this. That hasn't happened yet. Worst part, I've gotten new problems like muscle loss (despite working out and gaining weight) and erectile dysfunction (the tip doesn't get hard). Plus my social life is practically non-existent. Only friends I talk to are some of my internet friends and friends at the club I (rarely if ever) go to at my college. And most of the time I'm alone in my room both when I'm home and when I'm at my dorm in college. I'm going to see my doctor in about three days. I'm going to tell him about all of this. I doubt it will do anything since telling him has never done anything for me. I'm probably just gonna live the rest of my life like this. The suicidal thoughts have come back and they might just win this time.

I'm also here due to medical issues ruining my life. Sorry this is happing to you.

I know that heart problems and ED go together pretty often. I'm assuming you've seen a cardiologist and had some tests done?

 

[LaVieEnRose]

Be careful about revealing suicidal thoughts if you want to avoid being forced into the psych ward. If you want to talk about them make sure to stress you have no plan to carry them out.

Sorry about your condition. It's amazing how the body can fail us. I'll be CTBing in large part to a long-standing condition of my own.

 

[Regen]

If your doctor cant help you, maybe you will try another one? Blame it on mental problems seems not okay for me!

I think it is a good idea to tell how difficult your pain is. Maybe he understand how painful it is and that he have to do something more. And if not - change the doctor!

 

[Geodude77]

I'm also here due to medical issues ruining my life. Sorry this is happing to you.

I know that heart problems and ED go together pretty often. I'm assuming you've seen a cardiologist and had some tests done?

I've had a couple tests done about two years ago. They did ECG and an x-ray in the summer and a did an EKG months later in the fall. They found nothing.

If your doctor cant help you, maybe you will try another one? Blame it on mental problems seems not okay for me!

I think it is a good idea to tell how difficult your pain is. Maybe he understand how painful it is and that he have to do something more. And if not - change the doctor!

I would like to switch doctors but the doctor I see now is a family doctor, and my dad would really get mad at me if I switched which is stupid imo

 

[Forever Sleep]

This must be terribly stressful. Undiagnosed medical conditions are so worrying. I had gallstones years back and it also took a long time (partly my fault) for them to work out what it was. I did actually also get chronic chest pain- although it was obvious to me that it would come on after eating.

Probably not a good idea but I got so desperate- I started trying to self diagnose via the internet. You can scare yourself to death of course but I desperately wanted to know what to stop eating to avoid getting these violent attacks. (It's avoiding fat with gallstones.) I don't suppose you could do similar? Work out when and maybe why you are getting these pains?

I don't think there's anything worse than not being believed but it's important for you to keep pestering them- something clearly is wrong- you wouldn't be getting all these pains and symptoms otherwise. It's THEIR JOB to find out what it is... Don't feel bad for keeping on going back to them- they wouldn't put up with being in pain- why should you? Good luck.

 

[spoiledsick]

I would like to switch doctors but the doctor I see now is a family doctor, and my dad would really get mad at me if I switched which is stupid imo

it's valid and common practice to get a second opinion from another doctor! maybe frame it that way?

 

[june]

Ahh I feel you

 

[FuneralCry]

It must be so tiring and dreadful feeling trapped in that situation, and I do get that it's awful when what we go through just continues to get worse as time goes on. Existence does just seem to be endless problems and there could never be anything fair about this. Life is undeniably so cruel, no wonder so many wish to die.

 

[Geodude77]

It must be so tiring and dreadful feeling trapped in that situation, and I do get that it's awful when what we go through just continues to get worse as time goes on. Existence does just seem to be endless problems and there could never be anything fair about this. Life is undeniably so cruel, no wonder so many wish to die.

Yeah and the worst part is no one takes me seriously

it's valid and common practice to get a second opinion from another doctor! maybe frame it that way?

Trust me it's harder than it looks. My parents aren't very reasonable people