cvury
Member
- May 20, 2025
- 47
i made my second failed attempt a couple weeks ago, i tried to jump off a bridge but got restrained by bystanders. now i just got back from 2 week inpatient followed by a 2 week PHP followed by a 4-6 week IOP. i feel the exact same as the start, perhaps even worse. everyday that goes by there's another reason to kill myself, you tell these people u want to harm yourself and they reward your cry for help by throwing you in the loony bin and flipping your life upside down. i'm so exhausted. i'm tired of hearing people talk about their relationships and partners. i've never had a partner in my entire life. it's so alone. and i hate how i look, i look in the mirror and see a scary monster person, a subhuman piece of trash. i'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. i want it all to end. my friends and family are incapable of understanding how i feel. i'm just so fucking done with it all.
