2019

[Paulsmith]

Hopefully 2019 will be the year I FINALLY ctb. After about 2 or 3 failed attempts I 2018 I'm pretty sure that this is the year I meet the maker.

Didn't think I'd get to 2019 to be honest but there we are

Anyone else thinks that 2019 will be their last year

 

[QuickandPainless]

I was hoping not to see 2019 but here is my pussy self.

 

[Paulsmith]

I was hoping not to see 2019 but here is my pussy self.

It is hard to go eh

 

[15dec]

Hopefully it's the last. Just have to wait for the right opportunity, hopefully in February.

Though if things manage to get exponentially bad this month (which seems to already be happening) I'll happily take my exit early

 

[furax53]

I am 2 attempts to miss in 2018 I hope that 2019 will be better

 

[Jiva]

I still looking for the courage for the complete instead of a partial. It will be the last attempt, i think. During a partial the survival instinct won always.

 

[QuickandPainless]

I still looking for the courage for the complete instead of a partial. It will be the last attempt, i think. During a partial the survival instinct won always.

What's a partial exactly?

 

[15dec]

What's a partial exactly?

Hanging yourself while still in contact with the floor, the idea is to compress the carotid arteries by quickly crouching/kneeling which theoretically knocks you out in a few seconds and if I remember correctly, kills you in 5-10 minutes. Though overcoming your survival instinct is hard which is the main reason for failure, there's also the chance of discovery and being saved but that's a risk with every method

 

[QuickandPainless]

They call it a partial because that's what you meant to do or because it just didn't complete the job?

 

[15dec]

They call it a partial because that's what you meant to do or because it just didn't complete the job?

Partial suspension, since you're not fully suspended off the ground

 

[Jiva]

Partial suspension, since you're not fully suspended off the ground

It is the sole way, where it is possible stop it, if it is too painful. You can try it many times. And finally you can find a good painless way. It is not much sure. But many people choose it, because they looking for a 100% painless way. Other ways can not be usually safe interupted.

 

[21Neberg]

I wish everyone here luck in catching the bus. I don't think ill ever succeed, so ill just stick to cutting myself.

 

[311]

Same. I'm gonna shoot a fat shot of heroin into my veins.

 

[Dwellinglifeless]

Counting on it.

 

[JustAboutDone]

Hi Paulsmith
I see your picture is of the specific place I am hoping to ctb myself. Are you able to say if there are still 'patrols' of the area that try and stop people who are planning to do that?
I think I'll take a trip down to check it out but am anxious having been sectioned before to know how the land lies, so to speak. All the best to you x

 

[21Neberg]

Hi Paulsmith
I see your picture is of the specific place I am hoping to ctb myself. Are you able to say if there are still 'patrols' of the area that try and stop people who are planning to do that?
I think I'll take a trip down to check it out but am anxious having been sectioned before to know how the land lies, so to speak. All the best to you x

I'm not the person who originally replied to you, but I do think I have a couple of tips.
First off, I think scouting out the place is a great idea and you should certainly do it! The more preparation, the more likely you are to succeed.
Second, the most important thing to prepare for is your survival instinct. You have to overcome that as fast as possible, because the longer you wait at the ridge the more likely you'll be 'rescued'.
A good way to overcome that survival instinct is getting comfortable with the area you're going to jump down. Alcohol helps too.

Best of luck

 

[JustAboutDone]

Hi 21, thanks for this, it's really good advice. I haven't been to that place since I was at school - they didn't have 'watchers' then and I need to make sure I find a good spot. I don't want to end up on a ledge 8 ft down with a twisted ankle and a stay in a psychiatric ward ever again. I was thinking of a brisk walk to try and suss out the best place to jump am get a few photos then return with a quick drink and a run up.

 

[21Neberg]

Hi 21, thanks for this, it's really good advice. I haven't been to that place since I was at school - they didn't have 'watchers' then and I need to make sure I find a good spot. I don't want to end up on a ledge 8 ft down with a twisted ankle and a stay in a psychiatric ward ever again. I was thinking of a brisk walk to try and suss out the best place to jump am get a few photos then return with a quick drink and a run up.

Just make sure you're comfortable there and comfortable with the idea of jumping. Your survival instinct might very likely be the thing that stops you at the very last moment, which is when others might step in to 'save' you.

Also, scouting out the place and then shortly after returning intoxicated might make people suspicious of your intentions. Again, you don't want to get caught so don't make things too obvious you feel me?

Good luck!

 

[JustAboutDone]

I get you, 21, thanks x

 

[SiArc]

2019 will be my last year. 1 near successful attempt and a friend called the cops when I did not reply to her end of last year in the end of November. I am not supposed to be here. I am going out in such a way there will be no saving me. I've set distance between me and that friend which kinda breaks my heart but makes this all so much easier. Make it hopefully less painful for her too. But, can't think of others. This is for me.

 

[Jai]

It is hard to go eh

Very hard especially when the universe gets in the way every time I come close something comes along to fuck my plans up

 

[Paulsmith]

Very hard especially when the universe gets in the way every time I come close something comes along to fuck my plans up

Yeah. I bet the universe is pro life lol

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Definitely. My health is getting worse and I need to CTB by end of Feb.

 

[Hunter]

Good luck with whatever you choose to do mate.

 

[I am ___________]

I was hoping, praying that I would not make it. But here I am, my goal for the year is the same. This will be the year I will end it all.

 

[I am ___________]

Same. I'm gonna shoot a fat shot of heroin into my veins.

That's an epic way to go out..... hmm I might try it. Might as well go out big right?

 

[stellabelle]

Hopefully 2019 will be the year I FINALLY ctb. After about 2 or 3 failed attempts I 2018 I'm pretty sure that this is the year I meet the maker.

Didn't think I'd get to 2019 to be honest but there we are

Anyone else thinks that 2019 will be their last year

I'm certainly thinking and hoping that it is.

 

[Paloma]

My date is around summer break or next Christmas. A loooooong way to go. Got some things to do that may require a whole year to fulfill. Unless I run out of patience and in a desperate moment I ctb, since I've got everything now. In that case my date would be around February? Lmao. I don't trust myself. Hopefully I'll make it to Christmas.