Torch

Torch

My mind is filled with despair
Mar 18, 2023
122
I just got home from PetSmart, aquarium test in hand, when I noticed two Sheriff's deputies waiting for me at my doorstep. My heart raced as I approached them. They informed me that they had received a report of possible materials used to assist in suicide being delivered to my address today.

I quickly explained to the officers that the sodium nitrite was not for any harmful purpose but rather for a culinary experiment I was conducting on curing meats. The deputies appeared to understand the situation and apologized for the misunderstanding before they went on their way.

This has left me feeling uneasy and concerned. Hands shaking as I type this. I can't help but wonder if ordering from CCS is still safe, or if there's been a change in how these transactions are monitored. Did UPS possibly report my order to the authorities? I have always been extremely private about my personal life, and I have not shared any information about this order with anyone in person & don't use this username any where else on the web.

PLEASE exercise caution!! We must remain vigilant in safeguarding our privacy and ensuring our safety. Be very careful who you share sources with.

As for the aquarium results:
Well over 5.0 ppm (the max) testing a few grains of CCS SN in 5ml of water. I assume this is great!
 
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Salvation_

Salvation_

"Please, finish my story."
Nov 25, 2020
234
I guess the FBI really is tracking SN orders now, no matter the source
 
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unnormal9

unnormal9

SOLDIER T.
Apr 12, 2023
1,139
I cannot. This is too much.
 
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PurpleParadigm

PurpleParadigm

The glow is an illusion
Mar 22, 2023
201
Lol I wish I had your guts. I hate lying, when Police came today I asked what my situation was, and upon learning it is a welfare check and that they can't arrest/put me in psych ward I opened up about my struggles, had a bit of a moan, then they left leaving me with mental health services phone numbers. Actually good lads, but their approach needs work.

I cannot. This is too much.

Same. Back here again. Feeling kinda suicidal again.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
38,856
That must had been so awful. I really doubt that SN will even be available at all in the future, it's just the unfortunate reality.
 
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Torch

Torch

My mind is filled with despair
Mar 18, 2023
122
That must had been so awful. I really doubt that SN will even be available at all in the future, it's just the unfortunate reality.
It caught me off guard. I sat in my car for a few minutes to mentally prepare myself (I'm a bad lair). Trying to calm myself down.
 
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just_so_done

Experienced
Apr 16, 2023
258
I really want to scream right now, reading thread after thread of all the police showing up. It feels fucking hopeless now that I'll be able to access sn. Really didn't want to have to resort to the more painful and traumatizing ways to ctb, but hey thats what the police are driving us towards. I'm sorry to everyone who has had to go through that experience with the police.
 
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glitterypearls

glitterypearls

sing me to sleep
Mar 23, 2023
183
why the recent crack down on SN? It been used for a long time to CTB. there is even countless articles about it. I have a feeling something bigger is happening and they had to take SN down. all I can think about is a younger person using it and their parents out of anger alerted the authorities and now this is happening.
 
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Salvation_

Salvation_

"Please, finish my story."
Nov 25, 2020
234
why the recent crack down on SN? It been used for a long time to CTB. there is even countless articles about it. I have a feeling something bigger is happening and they had to take SN down. all I can think about is a younger person using it and their parents out of anger alerted the authorities and now this is happening.
Well, this site has been reaching peak numbers since Tantacrul's video dropped. The increased traffic might be one explanation.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
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why the recent crack down on SN? It been used for a long time to CTB. there is even countless articles about it. I have a feeling something bigger is happening and they had to take SN down. all I can think about is a younger person using it and their parents out of anger alerted the authorities and now this is happening.
don't click on the tantacrul video . that view will cause the youtube algorithm to suggest the video to more viewers. I think the tantacrul video attracted a lot of prolifers and or news people to this website . the british news organization then investigated IC and KL . Then that news organization told the Canadian police and government and they told all the other governments and police. so now seems like a big international crack down on sn sources and buyers.

 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
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Shitttt. I'm sorry you went through that. Thank you for confirming though I dont think anyone should order sn from any site at the moment. Wonder how far back ccs will go or if it will just be orders since the brief shutdown. Terrible thing to be doing to people. I gaurentie these searches will cost more lives than it saves. Stay strong everyone love you all.
 
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WorthlessCoward

Specialist
Mar 21, 2023
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Well over 5.0 ppm (the max) testing a few grains of CCS SN in 5ml of water. I assume this is great!
Is that when the color gets really redish/purple/brownish? Because I did the test and that's the colors I got, when the maximum indicated in the instructions were a darkish pink
 
NoLightRemains

NoLightRemains

I found my light again. Namu Amida Butsu
Sep 26, 2021
374
Ah this is what I was worried about. Seems it is not just IC orders they are involved in, unfortunately.
 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
320
@Torch I think you should make a thread warning others ccs is compromised too. If your not in a good state after your experience dm me and I would do it on your behalf. People need to be warned. I suspect any sn transactions are being watched currently but certainly the fact ccs removed sn for a few days the same time ic went down is no coincidence.
 
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Torch

Torch

My mind is filled with despair
Mar 18, 2023
122
Is that when the color gets really redish/purple/brownish? Because I did the test and that's the colors I got, when the maximum indicated in the instructions were a darkish pink
Yea, started very deep purple then went kinda brownish.
 
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nosoul

Arcanist
Apr 1, 2023
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@Torch I think you should make a thread warning others ccs is compromised too. If your not in a good state after your experience dm me and I would do it on your behalf. People need to be warned. I suspect any sn transactions are being watched currently but certainly the fact ccs removed sn for a few days the same time ic went down is no coincidence.
Does it help I got it before it went down? I got it right away
Is it worth doing a blood test just to make sure?
Not sure, I think aquarium test is prob better? U got it from CCS right? Did they ask ur bank statements?
 
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dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
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Does it help I got it before it went down? I got it right away
Same boat. Unsure havent heard of anyone who got it before getting a visit. I'm hoping previous purchases are safe and maybe that's why it was down for a bit. Putting some sort of middle man to watch the transactions. But theres very little reportings from ccs buyers so far.
 
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warriorofeld

warriorofeld

Traveller, beyond this marker lies midworld
Mar 22, 2023
129
I got mine 3 weeks ago and shipped right before they went down for a bit. So far no cops or anything like that it was delivered to a po box but does have my full address.. I really hope its legit incase I have to exit quikly..
 
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Obliviate

Obliviate

Abandon All Hope
Aug 13, 2022
800
This is fucking ridiculous omg wtf
 
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jruo

Member
Apr 25, 2023
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OP sent their info to IC in an attempt to purchase from them awhile ago. Than their SN from CSS arrived yesterday-ish. It was definitely from the IC source as the police wouldn't be able to send people over that quickly.

Please provide more context rather than scaring people OP.
 
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LaVieEnRose

LaVieEnRose

Angelic
Jul 23, 2022
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why the recent crack down on SN? It been used for a long time to CTB. there is even countless articles about it. I have a feeling something bigger is happening and they had to take SN down. all I can think about is a younger person using it and their parents out of anger alerted the authorities and now this is happening.
The supplier IC was used a lot by people all over the world and I think it became clear that IC was providing SN with knowledge of what it would (or could) be used for.
 
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glitterypearls

glitterypearls

sing me to sleep
Mar 23, 2023
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OP sent their info to IC in an attempt to purchase from them awhile ago. Than their SN from CSS arrived yesterday-ish. It was definitely from the IC source as the police wouldn't be able to send people over that quickly.

Please provide more context rather than scaring people OP.

oh that makes a lot of sense!!!!

thank you for clarifying!
 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
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OP sent their info to IC in an attempt to purchase from them awhile ago. Than their SN from CSS arrived yesterday-ish. It was definitely from the IC source as the police wouldn't be able to send people over that quickly.

Please provide more context rather than scaring people OP.
That makes sense. I dont think anyone else has confirmed a visit from orders via ccs
 
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Unwr!tten

Unwr!tten

Saltier than SN
Apr 10, 2023
532
That makes sense. I dont think anyone else has confirmed a visit from orders via ccs
I hope they never do. This is giving me legitimate anxiety.
 
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exploitedbacteria

exploitedbacteria

DESTROY THE VESSEL
Apr 5, 2023
133
OP sent their info to IC in an attempt to purchase from them awhile ago. Than their SN from CSS arrived yesterday-ish. It was definitely from the IC source as the police wouldn't be able to send people over that quickly.

Please provide more context rather than scaring people OP.
I was thinking the same thing earlier today, but got busy and didn't post… good call. Pretty sure he got a visit from giving IC dude information…. dunno.
 
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Torch

Torch

My mind is filled with despair
Mar 18, 2023
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OP sent their info to IC in an attempt to purchase from them awhile ago. Than their SN from CSS arrived yesterday-ish. It was definitely from the IC source as the police wouldn't be able to send people over that quickly.

Please provide more context rather than scaring people OP.
This didn't even cross my mind. However the cops said they "received a report of possible materials used to assist in suicide delivered to me today." So take that with a grain of salt I guess. I never placed an order with IC, I wasn't ever even invoiced. Who knows if the Canadian authorities got into his email or if he just had to give a list of everyone who ordered...
 
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dimstar

dimstar

Poor little woodpecker
Mar 17, 2023
320
I hope they never do. This is giving me legitimate anxiety.
Alot of people. Just being an ic sting makes more sense than a coordinated attack on all sn suppliers.
 
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exploitedbacteria

exploitedbacteria

DESTROY THE VESSEL
Apr 5, 2023
133
Is it worth doing a blood test just to make sure?
I think the blood test isn't best anymore. I think nitrate reacts the same way with blood.
 
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