Venting 2 Class now know that i am starving myself

[Zenna]

I try too keep it short because even texting is exhausting currently but if you have any questions just ask.

I am currently starving/dehydrating me, yes i know not an recommendet method because other people cant stop them self from eating but I am not most people.

Few minutes ago 2 ex classmates called me because they wanted to know why i stopped caming too school and stop contact with everyone.
It was an whatsapp call and i didn't know that its there a video call so they saw my completely dehydrated face.
Both of them know like nerly everyone that I already tryd too die from dehydrated so they already know that I want too try it again.

They promised me that they wouldn't call the ambulance but i dont know if I can trust them since i dont now them at all.


I am scared that they could tell anyone or dont keep there promised and call the ambulance anyways, i am alredy at day 6 and used many kinds of laxative too speed it up.
I dont want to start over and I am a bit scard of my plan b, even though it would be cool to die in the psychatrie and giving the people there some problems.
Oh and by the way i used the term school because i couldn't find a word for Ausbildung in English, the words that google translator suggested sound wrong

 

[justanotherfailure]

I think Ausbildung would be like a trade school (Handelsschule?)
I'm sorry that you've reached the point of feeling like life isn't worth it anymore, and I wish you peace no matter what happens

 

[Zenna]

I think Ausbildung would be like a trade school (Handelsschule?)
I'm sorry that you've reached the point of feeling like life isn't worth it anymore, and I wish you peace no matter what happens

trade schools and Ausbildung is definitely simular but not the same but it doesn't realy matter.

I try too keep it short because even texting is exhausting currently but if you have any questions just ask.

I am currently starving/dehydrating me, yes i know not an recommendet method because other people cant stop them self from eating but I am not most people.

Few minutes ago 2 ex classmates called me because they wanted to know why i stopped caming too school and stop contact with everyone.
It was an whatsapp call and i didn't know that its there a video call so they saw my completely dehydrated face.
Both of them know like nerly everyone that I already tryd too die from dehydrated so they already know that I want too try it again.

They promised me that they wouldn't call the ambulance but i dont know if I can trust them since i dont now them at all.


I am scared that they could tell anyone or dont keep there promised and call the ambulance anyways, i am alredy at day 6 and used many kinds of laxative too speed it up.
I dont want to start over and I am a bit scard of my plan b, even though it would be cool to die in the psychatrie and giving the people there some problems.
Oh and by the way i used the term school because i couldn't find a word for Ausbildung in English, the words that google translator suggested sound wrong

One of those school mates tells everyone what I am up to, so i am definitely in problems.

 

[justanotherfailure]

One of those school mates tells everyone what I am up to, so i am definitely in problems.

Oh no, hopefully you'll still be able to die without other people giving you complications

Honestly, why can't euthanasia be legal?

 

[Zenna]

Oh no, hopefully you'll still be able to die without other people giving you complications

Honestly, why can't euthanasia be legal?

They called the police, i am on the way into the psychatrie, in the first too controls they didn't find my 40.000mg ofParacetamol hidden in a dino plushy, at least something :)

 

[justanotherfailure]

I'm sorry. I wouldn't recommend you try to kill yourself with Paracetamol, but if you do choose to go with that, I wish you as painless a death as that method can bring you

 

[Zenna]

I'm sorry. I wouldn't recommend you try to kill yourself with Paracetamol, but if you do choose to go with that, I wish you as painless a death as that method can bring you

Thanks, my stuff gets lookt trough one last time and at the first chance i get if they dont find them i will swallow them.
In the past they never found anything that I hid there.
Always had a knife with me there in the past so they are not pretty good in finding hidden stuff
I am bit surprised they mey let me go today alredy, would be qn wast that they send police and ambulance...