10g metonitazene ctb

[viennawaitsxx]

hello again lovelies! i made the dumb mistake of testing the tiniest bit of my previous opioid (medetomidine) and accidentally overdosed, which resulted in an er + psych ward trip and the drugs being taken away. now i have 10g metonitazene, and have done a lot more research (thanks a lot to this amazing community<3). im also planning on getting a metoclopramide prescription, so will need a few more days before i can put the current plan into action. being;
-fasting for around 24h
-30mg antiemetics (metoclopramide/primperan) around 40minutes before taking opioids
-10g metonitazene orally (sadly i cannot test this, idk if i'll mix it in water or maybe snort some of it, any tips are appreciated!!)
-and then hopefully pass in my sleep
is there anything else i should take into account, anything im missing, etc. for context im 23F, around 172cm & 56kg. im thinking or making a thread to document my process when the time comes. wishing everyone here so much peace and love and thanks a lot in advance for any words :,3 i might be getting a hotel room for two nights to make sure im not found, if i can do so without arousing suspicion from my family haha

 

[Estrella87]

I believe it may work.

Why do you want to ctb?

 

[viennawaitsxx]

I believe it may work.

Why do you want to ctb?

thanks<3 its kind of hard to answer since in theory i should feel good, i come from a well off family, travel a lot, im in law school, have amazing friends etc. ive just felt suicidal ever since i was a kid and have attempted multiple times already. what put me into this latest spiral this summer was a heartbreaking breakup with someone i still really care about and would love to get back together with. overall im just tired, uninterested in everything, dont have the energy to work towards anything, havent been to the gym or partaken in any other hobbies in months. im barely going through the basic motions of brushing my teeth and sometimes eating. :,c

 

[Estrella87]

That's very sad.

Everybody is free here (I myself want to ctb in 1-2 years and registred here for learn more about methods and results if I can say like this) and I believe that everybody should have the right to chose if they want to live or not. But I hope that, if you end to do something, it will be a well thought decision as, I won't teach you this, it's irreversible and it can also hurt your family.

Feel free to pm me if you need to talk.

 

[viennawaitsxx]

That's very sad.

Everybody is free here (I myself want to ctb in 1-2 years and registred here for learn more about methods and results if I can say like this) and I believe that everybody should have the right to chose if they want to live or not. But I hope that, if you end to do something, it will be a well thought decision as, I won't teach you this, it's irreversible and it can also hurt your family.

Feel free to pm me if you need to talk.

thank u sweet angel :,) may i ask why u want to ctb in that timeframe? and what method are u planning on currently? wishing u peace in the process, whatever u end up deciding. and i will keep all that in mind and make the most informed decision i can. thank u

 

[Estrella87]

My husband died 6 years ago in an accident and some other small health issues makes me seriously considering ctb.

My niece just had 17YO and I want to see her reaching at least 18Yo, also for legacy reasons as I want she gets everything from me. I want to wait she's adult as I fear otherwise her mother, my sister, will keep and spend everything. That's my main reason to wait 1-2 years.

For now I'm considering hanging as it's the quickest and least painful in my opinion, while still leaving an "intact and presentable" body for funerals, seems weird but I'm picky with this and wouldn't want to be smashed by a train or so...

I think you can't have access to pm yet as it requires to have posted a minimum of posts but then, don't hesitate to pm me if you want.

 

[viennawaitsxx]

My husband died 6 years ago in an accident and some other small health issues makes me seriously considering ctb.

My niece just had 17YO and I want to see her reaching at least 18Yo, also for legacy reasons as I want she gets everything from me. I want to wait she's adult as I fear otherwise her mother, my sister, will keep and spend everything. That's my main reason to wait 1-2 years.

For now I'm considering hanging as it's the quickest and least painful in my opinion, while still leaving an "intact and presentable" body for funerals, seems weird but I'm picky with this and wouldn't want to be smashed by a train or so...

I think you can't have access to pm yet as it requires to have posted a minimum of posts but then, don't hesitate to pm me if you want.

im truly so sorry for your loss. and its really kind of u to consider ur niece in that manner. hope you can find some enjoyment in the next couple years or before its your time to go. and i understand wanting to leave your body presentable, i considered hanging as well, but thought it might be a bit too much for me personally. i read in the rules u need to post a bit before being able to pm, but once i can i will be in touch. i wish u all the besthugs

 

[Estrella87]

Yeah don't hesitate to also post in off section games or so, dunno if I should say this, but it helps to quickly get the reaction score for pm

When do you want to ctb? I hope you will take the time to think really.

 

[hdead]

10 grams?! How are you planning on taking that much? It seems like a lot, way more than you should need, too. Can you elaborate a bit on how you got to that amount?