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[Un-]

I.. just.. Nothing changes.

I've spent 40 minutes trying to type something. I can't describe how I. That wasn't a typo. I can't describe how I...

I wish everyday that I die. I'm too.. " "... to do it myself. And I'm too " " to complain about it.

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[SarRy]

I think I know that feeling. Sometimes, when you get that close, nothing seems worth saying. It either is or it isn't. Not making a choice is making a choice. It's not cowardice. It's approaching a serious problem with a serious level of caution.

I hope you find peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

In my case, of course I've always wished to die and I always will do as long as I continue to exist. It does seem as though any writing about this is pointless to me, as it doesn't bring me closer to death even know I wish that it would, the truth is that life is the most useless and terrible concept, as we are forced here without choice and yet leaving this world can be difficult. I know what it's like when it's hard to put thoughts into words, but even words to me are so empty and meaningless. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

 

[Un-]

I think I know that feeling. Sometimes, when you get that close, nothing seems worth saying. It either is or it isn't. Not making a choice is making a choice. It's not cowardice. It's approaching a serious problem with a serious level of caution.

I hope you find peace.

I hope to god I find peace as well. My worst fear is feeling too... Depressed.. That I don't have energy to kill myself.

In my case, of course I've always wished to die and I always will do as long as I continue to exist. It does seem as though any writing about this is pointless to me, as it doesn't bring me closer to death even know I wish that it would, the truth is that life is the most useless and terrible concept, as we are forced here without choice and yet leaving this world can be difficult. I know what it's like when it's hard to put thoughts into words, but even words to me are so empty and meaningless. I hope that you find what you are looking for.

You get it. "words are so empty and meaningless".. It's why I struggled to write this post.. It won't change anything for me. Sigh. It's just a sense of speechlessness.. There's nothing to be said.

I.. I genuinely cannot fucking wait until I die. A person like me isn't supposed to live as long as I have.

 

[artificial_ineptness]

I relate. At least I think so...

I'm deeply despondent a lot of the time. Empty. Null. Void. ∅. Already dead, and just rotting. Resigned. Life has defeated me and I am too helpless and hopeless to do or care much.

Although, personally, I do see some meaning in words. The thread has meaning (to me) in that it is somewhat relatable. Posting things myself has meaning in the sense that the more I get rejected and ignored, the more motivation I'll have to ctb. Should that matter to you? Nah, but at least we can both agree that being too depressed to ctb is not a state we want to be in, so I cope however I can.

 

[Un-]

I relate. At least I think so...

I'm deeply despondent a lot of the time. Empty. Null. Void. ∅. Already dead, and just rotting. Resigned. Life has defeated me and I am too helpless and hopeless to do or care much.

Although, personally, I do see some meaning in words. The thread has meaning (to me) in that it is somewhat relatable. Posting things myself has meaning in the sense that the more I get rejected and ignored, the more motivation I'll have to ctb. Should that matter to you? Nah, but at least we can both agree that being too depressed to ctb is not a state we want to be in, so I cope however I can.

The reason why my thread is named " " is because.. I genuinely cannot describe how I feel. It's worse than agony. But that describe anything.

I'm glad you relate though.. Well, not really.. It's not a good thing that you feel similarly. At least you don't feel alone.. I don't know. I can't even fathom how... How SHIT I'm feeling. God.

As the days pass, the more and more devastated I feel that I'm alive.

It wouldn't be so bad if I could enjoy something.. Or distract myself. Truth be told, I don't like this forum. But I dislike it less than everything else in my life. So I'm constantly, constantly miserable. No matter what I do.. Sigh.

 

[Maudlin]

I hope to god I find peace as well. My worst fear is feeling too... Depressed.. That I don't have energy to kill myself.

Good god, that would suck.

Don't take this wrong... I really mean you no harm, and hope you find peace but that made me giggle. Thank you.

Of course, I'm toxic.