10 years in psychiatry, still trying to solve life

[Penguin96]

Hello!

I'm happy to be here. It's my first post and thread. I just wanted to say that I've been 10 years in psychiatry and just this weekend I was at the hospital.

A lot of the time I want to give up. Life is too hard, there are too many obstacles. Despite doctors and therapists, I go down the hole a lot.

I have bipolar disorder, borderline personality disorder, and adhd. I'm medically retired so I don't have to work. It's hard to find meaning in life.

I might get psychiatric housing in the future. You know, a place where there's staff near your home. But we'll see about that. Right now, I live at home.

How do you guys keep going after so many years with issues? I'm 35 and scared about the future. But a part of me still has hope about it.

Best wishes,
Penguin96

 

[unluckysadness]

Hi and welcome to the forum
I'm sorry you're suffering that much. I'm older than you (43) and to be honest, I don't know why I'm still here. Probably survival instinct and a very little amount of hope. All my life has been pain, anxiety, sadness with so much mental and physical disorders...
I think we are all scared about the future. The present moment is already scary. And when you have trauma (I do - like many people here), it feels you are stuck in hell. Feels like it never ends. I hope this forum can help you. The members here are wonderful people And if your pain is bearable, I wish you recovery. I send you hugs and thanks for being here

 

[BlueVolt]

Hi,
I relate a lot : 15 years in therapy, seen a lot of psychiatrists.

I keep going because I can see that I've made a lot of progress. The relapses can be worse than the beginning but I have better coping mechanisms. My mental health is still bad but I try to be more kind to myself, and I am proud of some things I did.

You managed to get medical retirement and also you might get a psychiatric housing. You have some support that I suppose you didn't have before and I know it's a lot of work to ask for help. In my country it requires lots of paperwork and one also needs to overcome a feeling of illegitimacy, so it's nice that you managed to do all of this process

I say that because I'm like you, I recently got some "administrative" recognition of my mental illnesses and even if it's not much I feel more equipped than before to face a new crisis.
These kind of thoughts help me.

I wish you the best !