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An end with suffering > Suffering without an end
- Aug 29, 2022
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SN tests complete and ready to go. All components and accessories needed for a quick partial ready to go. Definitely a mixture of feelings the closer I get. At night, when the world is asleep and I'm at peace it's kind of depressing. I think about the past mostly, good memories of times, people and things that will never return. I think of the people currently in my life that I'll miss. Between 1am and 5am everything seems ok. Then the sun rises and my feelings flip. I don't want to endure the day, be around people, complete any tasks, simple things expected of me like brushing my teeth, showering, eating, socializing, etc. High SI at night, low to no SI during the day. So I'm guessing the best time to remove myself from everything would be during daylight hours, as opposed to night, when my demons are asleep.
