1 month ago

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Today marked a month since the day i was meant to die, a date planned out to perfection the prior week. It was nearly so perfect. I ended everything really well with the people I wanted to and even had one really last special moment. The day was everything I wanted it to be. The hike, the views, the peace and tranquillity of it all. Just not the failed ctb at the end of it.

A month later I feel so crap and wish it ended then. I hate those chaplains who stopped me.

 

[Disco Biscuit]

Did you go to Beachy Head?

 

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Did you go to Beachy Head?

Yep, was such a nice day. Really enjoyed it. I grew up learning to appreciate walking and it's something I shared with the love of my life. Eastbourne was new to me and I thought it was beautiful. Felt really at peace there.

 

[PeacefulTonic]

Yep, was such a nice day. Really enjoyed it. I grew up learning to appreciate walking and it's something I shared with the love of my life. Eastbourne was new to me and I thought it was beautiful. Felt really at peace there.

Jumping is your method right?

 

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Jumping is your method right?

Yep

 

[FuneralCry]

I can imagine that must be frustrating for things to not go to plan. I'm sorry you had to go through this. After all, it is our life and our decision and we have the right to exit at a time of our own choosing. Nobody else should have any say in it. Anyway, I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you are looking for.

 

[Someone123]

It seems like an easy method compared to most when you have that much height. I know the golden gate bridge is patrolled so heavily that it's almost impossible to jump there, police swarm any single people- they're down to 1 every two weeks out of probably hundreds who want to during the same time, I would bet. If you live there you could walk there more often, and then walk with someone else and maybe have a chance - a 99% chance to ctb sounds good to me. Is Beachy Head also patrolled quite heaviily- it seems it might not be as difficult to access, but SI can be unexpectedly strong.

 

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It seems like an easy method compared to most when you have that much height. I know the golden gate bridge is patrolled so heavily that it's almost impossible to jump there, police swarm any single people- they're down to 1 every two weeks out of probably hundreds who want to during the same time, I would bet. If you live there you could walk there more often, and then walk with someone else and maybe have a chance - a 99% chance to ctb sounds good to me. Is Beachy Head also patrolled quite heaviily- it seems it might not be as difficult to access, but SI can be unexpectedly strong.

It's not super bad I think they literally just have two chaplains. It's easy if you just go there and jump straight away but me not knowing I waited around on the cliff edge for 10-20 minutes staring into the distance and coming to peace.

 

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It's not super bad I think they literally just have two chaplains. It's easy if you just go there and jump straight away but me not knowing I waited around on the cliff edge for 10-20 minutes staring into the distance and coming to peace.

It is also a common walking site for tourists so it's not like you can't access it.

 

[obliviousatbest]

This hit differently. When I was 14 I trekked up to Beachy Head with the intention of dying, everything planned weeks ahead, but after spending a while up there I left, stupidly, and my life and dresms have been soaked in the regret and trauma of not dying there ever since. I remember taking photos while preparing to/to not jump to divert any potential interence and look like anyone else up there just taking photos of the view. I'm sorry your experience didn't go as you intended either. Sending you tranquil energy going forward.

 

[Rational man]

Today marked a month since the day i was meant to die, a date planned out to perfection the prior week. It was nearly so perfect. I ended everything really well with the people I wanted to and even had one really last special moment. The day was everything I wanted it to be. The hike, the views, the peace and tranquillity of it all. Just not the failed ctb at the end of it.

A month later I feel so crap and wish it ended then. I hate those chaplains who stopped me.

The Chaplaincy team are very active up there. The numbers of people ctb there is staggering. I read the cases in the media. One young couple went over the top holding hands recently. So tragic, so awful. They lost their young son..heartbreaking

 

[Someone123]

It's not super bad I think they literally just have two chaplains. It's easy if you just go there and jump straight away but me not knowing I waited around on the cliff edge for 10-20 minutes staring into the distance and coming to peace.

That sounds pretty easy- way easier than most jumping spots.

 

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That sounds pretty easy- way easier than most jumping spots.

Ye SI and hanging around too much is the only thing that will be able to stop you

 

[Someone123]

Ye SI and hanging around too much is the only thing that will be able to stop you

It's amazing that they only have 20 suicides a year considering how easy this is. You still need to watch where you jump- I just saw an article where I guy landed on a ledge 250 feet down and decided to call for help from there- he wasn't injured. 200 feet is usually enough to alsmot always kill a person- I wonder if he slid down the side some- it looks pretty straight down, though. This looks about as easy as ctb could be for most people. One article says a guy survived from 530 feet after his parachute failed. WSow, that would be a bymmer to fail to ctb from that height.