denjiwillsaveme
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- Apr 11, 2024
- 25
Recently I went out with "friends" from college and ugh it felt like I wasted my time and money cuz the whole time it was an awkward interaction; I was honestly trying to be happy and bubbly but I don't think I can be around them for very long.
The main reason we even got close is because we take the same classes and wtv right !? making new friends is fine but I do not feel comfortable at all with them like literary I have to keep faking my personality with them which is so exhausting and I can do that for about 2 or 3 hours and then after I completely shut down and go quiet; I can't help it but we don't that much in common and we just awkwardly sit in silence.
After class, we went out to eat and it was fine we ate and it was peaceful but I was low on sleep because I was working the whole night before to turn in assignments so I was not in the mood for a movie but everyone wanted to so I agreed. Then we decided to go watch The Challengers and the worst part was it was boring I was sleeping the whole time, and I didn't even get to pick out what I wanted to see but all of them decided on that movie because ofc I'm not going to like to say anything cuz again my fake personality was getting over me and just agreed to keep the peace. The movie was fine ig but it was so long and I was too tired to even care. I was the one driving and I was paying for these people (ofc not all but like the majority) and it was getting annoying. I honestly didn't even know how I made it home but I really wanted to crash and die cuz I was so pissed off.
It's a small little group of "friends" but one of them is racist and I just don't like people like that AT ALL. I didn't know about this behavior until I was dropping them off and it was so uncomfortable they were saying things like if their mom saw me she would be scared about me because I'm darker complexion (I'm an olive tone color) but like wtf am I supposed to say about that???? The other two are in their own world and buddy up all the time I just feel like I do not fit in so it is so awkward but I really wanna ghost them so baddddd.
The main reason we even got close is because we take the same classes and wtv right !? making new friends is fine but I do not feel comfortable at all with them like literary I have to keep faking my personality with them which is so exhausting and I can do that for about 2 or 3 hours and then after I completely shut down and go quiet; I can't help it but we don't that much in common and we just awkwardly sit in silence.
After class, we went out to eat and it was fine we ate and it was peaceful but I was low on sleep because I was working the whole night before to turn in assignments so I was not in the mood for a movie but everyone wanted to so I agreed. Then we decided to go watch The Challengers and the worst part was it was boring I was sleeping the whole time, and I didn't even get to pick out what I wanted to see but all of them decided on that movie because ofc I'm not going to like to say anything cuz again my fake personality was getting over me and just agreed to keep the peace. The movie was fine ig but it was so long and I was too tired to even care. I was the one driving and I was paying for these people (ofc not all but like the majority) and it was getting annoying. I honestly didn't even know how I made it home but I really wanted to crash and die cuz I was so pissed off.
It's a small little group of "friends" but one of them is racist and I just don't like people like that AT ALL. I didn't know about this behavior until I was dropping them off and it was so uncomfortable they were saying things like if their mom saw me she would be scared about me because I'm darker complexion (I'm an olive tone color) but like wtf am I supposed to say about that???? The other two are in their own world and buddy up all the time I just feel like I do not fit in so it is so awkward but I really wanna ghost them so baddddd.
These bitches don't deserve you, stay safe
