I don’t fit into this group either

[Esokabat]

All my life, I never fit into any group. I think it is due to my autism. I tried and tried all my life. In the end, at age 40, I happily stopped trying and just embraced being alone. I will not say lonely as "lonely" implies that you are suffering from being alone and I am not suffering. So I find it hilarious that I don't even fit into this group, even though my aim is the same as everyone else's here. I remember once I went to a conference for my special interest for a whole week in the US, a subject I know everything about, and even in this conference I did not fit in.
In this group, I am feeling that maybe I am the only one that has never been depressed, I am happy now, I am happy about my CTB and I will be listening a happy song, probably from Lion King (He lives in you) as that is my go song on psilocybin. I have lived many many traumas, maybe someone of them are more serious than many here, but it never made me feel traumatized or depressed. Not something I would want to repeat (I often say to myself that if someone would give me the choice to re-live my whole life since birth or CTB immediately, I would CTB as it was just too much to re-live). But somehow trauma falls off me, depression never knocks on my life, I still like my life but due to certain personal and medical reasons, and autism also has a big role, I came to the conclusion that I will sell my house, have an amazing vacation, and then ctb. And I know many will mot agree, and many will ridicule this thought but I don't have a problem with SI as I know where I am going. I know I have done this many times. I lived and died thousands of times. I know that when I drink the N, my essence will leave by physical body and I will start my journey back to HOME. I know that I am not a victim as a chose this. Chose the autism, chose the childhood trauma, choose going blind, choose a borderline personality disorder mother, chose to be kicked out of home many times, I chose disease that made spend my childhood in hospitals. I am not blaming my parents, not god, not universe. I never ever in my life felt a victim. I know that I am not preaching to the choir here as most people here appear to seek non-existence, which I am sorry to say doesn't exist, but you can believe whatever you want and feel like victims, victims of parents who procreated, victims of life, victims of psychologist that didn't provide correct care, victims of society, or victims of disease and pain, which are all real things, and yet , I don't believe in victimhood. We are in a theatre where our soul decided to play the role of the poor sick homeless beggar. For reasons that will be oculted from us until we leave the physical brain and connect again to the cosmic intelligence that knows everything. If we think we are victims, we identify with the beggar. We forgot that this is theater, we forgot that we are an actor in a theater. When we leave the physical body behind, we will remember again, and earthly life will lose its power on us, it will be like when we are leaving the movie theater after seeing a very immersive movie, and our eyes slowly gets used to the outside light. I know that for the majority here, this will not resonate. And I accept that. Your soul remembers. Your soul is not a victim. I remember, you can remember too. It starts with having your power back, no victimhood. I write this in case one out of every hundred person this writing will light up a very very remote memory, a memory that doesn't even stored in the brain, a memory that we can connect with when the brain doesn't operate, deep meditation, certain drugs, certain music or singing, being silent in nature, when knowledge comes to us not from the brain, not through language, not through words. I know this is not the right forum to find similar thinkers, with all the non-existance lovers, and the self-harm, and the blaming of parents, blaming god, evil, being born, society, psychologists, disease, mental illness. These things are all real, painful and tragic. But underneath it all, we have a Light that knows it is the Actor in the theatre, not the character. It knows that it is powerful and magnificent. I don't know if I will have SI or not at the time of CTB, but I will put on my favorite song, and I will have a smile on my face as I know where I am going, and I know I did this journey thousand times, and yet I am keep coming back. My human self would never come back to this. So this tells me that what my human self knows, which is the character in the play, and what the Actor knows, are not the same. And what is coming is magnificent. (We will be "Oh wow, oh wow, oh wow" Steve Jobs last words just before dying). I really hope that in all this suffering, I am not the only person on this site that will be CTB-ing with a happy song, with my Sony headset on, with happiness in my heart. Everything that is human in us will die with death. Suffering, mental illness, confusion, hurt, anger, it will all be left behind with the theater costume that the Actor will take off at the end of the play, as an old, uncomfortable clothes, and as our eyes get used to the outside light as we leave the movie theater, we will be surprised how on Earth we could ever think or believe that the movie was REALITY. What madness was this and how we could ever think this was real and the theater character was actually us.

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

Do you think that if you have severe brain damage that follows you when you die? Do you think that having severe brain damage means that I'm not going to end up where I'm supposed to when I die if there's an afterlife? I'm afraid of that. Unfortunately my cognitive processing skills are so poor that I can't answer it myself. I guess what I'm saying is I feel like my consciousness has been perverted and broken badly from what was intended, and I'm scared what that means for afterlife.

 

[Esokabat]

Do you think that if you have severe brain damage that follows you when you die? Do you think that having severe brain damage means that I'm not going to end up where I'm supposed to when I die if there's an afterlife? I'm afraid of that. Unfortunately my cognitive processing skills are so poor that I can't answer it myself. I guess what I'm saying is I feel like my consciousness has been perverted and broken badly from what was intended, and I'm scared what that means for afterlife.

I am so happy I am able to answer you on this. You have nothing to worry about. Your physical body will be left behind, that includes all physical damage, all illness, all disability. Your essence or soul or whatever name we want to give it, only puts on the physical body as we put on an old clothes. The part of you that survives death is perfect, without any physical damage or disease. The part of you that survives physical death is powerful, magnificent, more powerful than you can possibly imagine, perfect and it is integral part of everything that exist, all eternity, part of god. When blind people have an out of body experience during Near Death Experiences, they see perfectly during their out of body experience. They don't need eyes to see. They often describe everything that happened with perfect accuracy, including people that have been blind since birth.
Your brain and brain damage is part of your physical body. You will leave ypur physical body behind. Your soul is always perfect, glorious and powerful, it cannot be damaged, cannot be traumatized, cannot be hurt. Your brain damage is part of your physical body. You will shed that body like an old clothes that no longer fits. You will be perfect again, because you were never not perfect. Eartly life and the physical body is just an illusion, not reality. Earthly life is valuable as it has a purpose, but not real reality. You don't have anything to worry about. No disease or damage can touch your soul. Your soul is undestoyable, powerful, magnificent, cannot be hurt, traumatized or destroyed, connected to All there is, and is a part of God. What is hurting and being damaged is your physical body. But the physical body is just a temporary tool for the Soul to live a human life. Your physical body and your human personality are temporary, just tools for an objective. Your soul journeys through eternity . You really do not have anything to worry about. No disease or damage can touch your Soul or cause it any harm. It is part of God, part of all there is, connected to everything in existsnce. You are safe and whole always. Even if ypu don't understand anything, your Soul knows everything as it is connected to divine intelligence. When you leave the human body, you will be perfect again. As in reality, your real self was always perfect and always will be. You are safe , you are loved and you are being taken care of, no brain damage can change that

 

[divinemistress36]

I can't wait to go home I've had enough learning . Do you believe we continue to keep reincarnating?

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I am so happy I am able to answer you on this. You have nothing to worry about. Your physical body will be left behind, that includes all physical damage, all illness, all disability. Your essence or soul or whatever name we want to give it, only puts on the physical body as we put on an old clothes. The part of you that survives death is perfect, without any physical damage or disease. The part of you that survives physical death is powerful, magnificent, more powerful than you can possibly imagine, perfect and it is integral part of everything that exist, all eternity, part of god. When blind people have an out of body experience during Near Death Experiences, they see perfectly during their out of body experience. They don't need eyes to see. They often describe everything that happened with perfect accuracy, including people that have been blind since birth.
Your brain and brain damage is part of your physical body. You will leave ypur physical body behind. Your soul is always perfect, glorious and powerful, it cannot be damaged, cannot be traumatized, cannot be hurt. Your brain damage is part of your physical body. You will shed that body like an old clothes that no longer fits. You will be perfect again, because you were never not perfect. Eartly life and the physical body is just an illusion, not reality. Earthly life is valuable as it has a purpose, but not real reality. You don't have anything to worry about. No disease or damage can touch your soul. Your soul is undestoyable, powerful, magnificent, cannot be hurt, traumatized or destroyed, connected to All there is, and is a part of God. What is hurting and being damaged is your physical body. But the physical body is just a temporary tool for the Soul to live a human life. Your physical body and your human personality are temporary, just tools for an objective. Your soul journeys through eternity . You really do not have anything to worry about. No disease or damage can touch your Soul or cause it any harm. It is part of God, part of all there is, connected to everything in existsnce. You are safe and whole always. Even if ypu don't understand anything, your Soul knows everything as it is connected to divine intelligence. When you leave the human body, you will be perfect again. As in reality, your real self was always perfect and always will be. You are safe , you are loved and you are being taken care of, no brain damage can change that

Thank you, thank you it's the only hope I have left I can't imagine anything other than the hell that I'm in now so I have to ask other people because I can't understand anything anymore

 

[J&L383]

No one will ridicule you here. I'm sorry you don't feel your fit in here but I think everyone fits in everywhere, after all, human existence is also a spectrum. As for if, what, anything after we die, I believe the jury is still out on that, and until it happens we won't know for sure. I hope you're right, though, happy to leave this body behind for good! And see what the next adventure is.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

You have a method in mind? I find that song incredibly sad and personally cannot listen to that nor watch Lion King anymore. Too heartwrenchingly sad.

 

[Esokabat]

You have a method in mind? I find that song incredibly sad and personally cannot listen to that nor watch Lion King anymore. Too heartwrenchingly sad.

My method will be N. I will travel to South America this summer. As far as the song, I heard that song by Diana Ross (He lives in you) before even knowing about the movie of Lion King. So the text/ lyrics of the song are not associated with the movie for me. Also, when you don't believe in Death, or rather believe that death is simply going HOME, you don't feel the same sadness about things, for example I am not sad when people die, I don't go to funerals because it seems too much unnecessary drama, when in fact it should be a celebration. So when I hear "He lives in you" by Diana Ross, it reminds me that God is in every one of us, we are all part of God, we his/her/it essence is part of me, part of you, and since we are made of the same essence, we are all connected beyond imagination. Separation is only an illusion, in fact after death we re-experience our life from the perspective of everyone we interacted with, and this is the only unpleasant part of death, as we humans will end up hurting others during a lifetime, even with the best intentions, as this is just what having a human experience automatically involves. So I invite you to listen to the Diana Ross version with no preconception, don't connect it with the movie, and see what the song makes you feel then. I used this song during some very deep psilocybin trips and I received incredible revelations about my own life, it left me in tears from the joy of understanding. But I think everyone have different special songs that touch your Soul, so maybe this one is not yours. But when you reslize death doesn't exists, it is hard to feel sadness or being fearful of anything

I can't wait to go home I've had enough learning . Do you believe we continue to keep reincarnating?

Your Soul might decide to reincarnate many many times more. It is not mandatory but your Soul might make that decision based on knowledge and understanding that is not available for the human persona. There are souls that never come to Earth. Earth is considered one of the hardest schools where we can incarnate to. There are also other places that are less hard and less physically dense. So reincarnation is likely but it is not random, not mandatory, and it will be in the end the decision of your soul and soul family. Your soul views an Earthy life as a fleeting moment of illusion, in the context of eternity, it is a specifically designed and planned lesson plan that your agrees to and help design, with the collaboration of your entire soul group, as their lesson plans are intertwined with yours. So it is a very methodically designed process and you are fully participating in tbe design, depending on what is the next life's objective and learning plan, for you, and for everyone else that you will interact with closely. So your Soul might choose to reincarnate to Earth, it might choose to reincarnate to somewhere easier, it might choose not to reincarnate, or it might choose to take a long break, stay at HOME for a while and decide later. But you have to understand that your Soul is not human, it has no human fears and thoughts, and sometimes it will willingly agree to difficult Earth lifetimes because it has a very specific purpose in mind, something it wants to achieve… But same as here, we have free will here, and we have free will there. You don't have to be afraid of reincarnation because reincarnation is not random and it is not punishment. It is simply a learning oppurtunity that your soul might or might not decide to sign up for. Many people believe in karma but karma is just an energy, it is not punishment, simply the Soul might want to experience things that it doesn't have knowledge about or have the opportunity to correct precious Earthly errors. What essentially the Soul is trying to learn is Love. On the other side, everything is made of Love, so the soul comes to a human body to experience and learn about Love in an environment that has little love and lots of adversity. It is like a muscle. Without heavy weights, the muscle will not grow. Earth is the place with the heavy weights

You have a method in mind? I find that song incredibly sad and personally cannot listen to that nor watch Lion King anymore. Too heartwrenchingly sad.

Also. There is a violin solo in the Diana Ross version and during a psilocybin trip, that part took me to a different dimensional space where some answers opened up for me, so I kept listening to the same song maybe about a hundred times during a psilocybin trip, and the violin solo would literally threw me into somewhere, different internal space, different dimension, different frequency, but I was almost not in my body, and such amazing revelations came that I kept sobbing, from joy, to the point where I could hardly breath as both my nose was blocked up. So during psilocybin, this song performed miracles for me, took me to a completely different awareness and frequency. I hope I find another song that does this with psilocybin as I have already listened to this one hundreds of times. And it was not even the singing that did it, it was the violin solo.

 

[lostinwoe]

My method will be N. I will travel to South America this summer. As far as the song, I heard that song by Diana Ross (He lives in you) before even knowing about the movie of Lion King. So the text/ lyrics of the song are not associated with the movie for me. Also, when you don't believe in Death, or rather believe that death is simply going HOME, you don't feel the same sadness about things, for example I am not sad when people die, I don't go to funerals because it seems too much unnecessary drama, when in fact it should be a celebration. So when I hear "He lives in you" by Diana Ross, it reminds me that God is in every one of us, we are all part of God, we his/her/it essence is part of me, part of you, and since we are made of the same essence, we are all connected beyond imagination. Separation is only an illusion, in fact after death we re-experience our life from the perspective of everyone we interacted with, and this is the only unpleasant part of death, as we humans will end up hurting others during a lifetime, even with the best intentions, as this is just what having a human experience automatically involves. So I invite you to listen to the Diana Ross version with no preconception, don't connect it with the movie, and see what the song makes you feel then. I used this song during some very deep psilocybin trips and I received incredible revelations about my own life, it left me in tears from the joy of understanding. But I think everyone have different special songs that touch your Soul, so maybe this one is not yours. But when you reslize death doesn't exists, it is hard to feel sadness or being fearful of anything

Your Soul might decide to reincarnate many many times more. It is not mandatory but your Soul might make that decision based on knowledge and understanding that is not available for the human persona. There are souls that never come to Earth. Earth is considered one of the hardest schools where we can incarnate to. There are also other places that are less hard and less physically dense. So reincarnation is likely but it is not random, not mandatory, and it will be in the end the decision of your soul and soul family. Your soul views an Earthy life as a fleeting moment of illusion, in the context of eternity, it is a specifically designed and planned lesson plan that your agrees to and help design, with the collaboration of your entire soul group, as their lesson plans are intertwined with yours. So it is a very methodically designed process and you are fully participating in tbe design, depending on what is the next life's objective and learning plan, for you, and for everyone else that you will interact with closely. So your Soul might choose to reincarnate to Earth, it might choose to reincarnate to somewhere easier, it might choose not to reincarnate, or it might choose to take a long break, stay at HOME for a while and decide later. But you have to understand that your Soul is not human, it has no human fears and thoughts, and sometimes it will willingly agree to difficult Earth lifetimes because it has a very specific purpose in mind, something it wants to achieve… But same as here, we have free will here, and we have free will there. You don't have to be afraid of reincarnation because reincarnation is not random and it is not punishment. It is simply a learning oppurtunity that your soul might or might not decide to sign up for. Many people believe in karma but karma is just an energy, it is not punishment, simply the Soul might want to experience things that it doesn't have knowledge about or have the opportunity to correct precious Earthly errors. What essentially the Soul is trying to learn is Love. On the other side, everything is made of Love, so the soul comes to a human body to experience and learn about Love in an environment that has little love and lots of adversity. It is like a muscle. Without heavy weights, the muscle will not grow. Earth is the place with the heavy weights

Also. There is a violin solo in the Diana Ross version and during a psilocybin trip, that part took me to a different dimensional space where some answers opened up for me, so I kept listening to the same song maybe about a hundred times during a psilocybin trip, and the violin solo would literally threw me into somewhere, different internal space, different dimension, different frequency, but I was almost not in my body, and such amazing revelations came that I kept sobbing, from joy, to the point where I could hardly breath as both my nose was blocked up. So during psilocybin, this song performed miracles for me, took me to a completely different awareness and frequency. I hope I find another song that does this with psilocybin as I have already listened to this one hundreds of times. And it was not even the singing that did it, it was the violin solo.

how did you get N? i thought they stopped making it

 

[rotciv]

Our soul is our body being transformed into other forms of energy and it will be redistributed in the Universe mainly on planet Earth, just like the energy (in the form of action, knowledge, etc.) that we constantly emanate and consume during our lives. Everyone plays a role (energy) in this world and we are all part of this constant modifying process of the Universe.

 

[Hotsackage]

Kind of relate, but the brain is the seed of consciousness, this spirit is what drives the consciousness in the brain to happen, and after death, it goes to sleep until the next life. Every other form of spirituality, doesn't pay homage to what we currently understand about science and the brain. All the best.

 

[Esokabat]

Our soul is our body being transformed into other forms of energy and it will be redistributed in the Universe mainly on planet Earth, just like the energy (in the form of action, knowledge, etc.) that we constantly emanate and consume during our lives. Everyone plays a role (energy) in this world and we are all part of this constant modifying process of the Universe.

You assume that your Soul is part of the physical universe. You also assume that the entire existence is based on the physical universe. Your Soul is not part of the physical universe. Not part of Space Time universe, and is not part of or participating in neither Space or Time. But in any case, I like the way you think, and I don't want to argue, but your thinking is rooted in the belief that existence equals space time universe and that is not the case. Space time universe is where physical life takes place, under physical laws, with the factor and effect of Time. Where the Soul is at HOME, time doesn't exist, and neither space or any physical laws.

 

[rotciv]

You assume that your Soul is part of the physical universe. You also assume that the entire existence is based on the physical universe. Your Soul is not part of the physical universe. Not part of Space Time universe, and is not part of or participating in neither Space or Time. But in any case, I like the way you think, and I don't want to argue, but your thinking is rooted in the belief that existence equals space time universe and that is not the case. Space time universe is where physical life takes place, under physical laws, with the factor and effect of Time. Where the Soul is at HOME, time doesn't exist, and neither space or any physical laws.

So you assume that every animal and plants have soul? What if the soul is a creation of our brain evolution?

Isnt time a perception of our brain?

I've read so many about people who went and came back that I prefer not to romanticize death.

 

[DefinitelyReady]

My method will be N. I will travel to South America this summer. As far as the song, I heard that song by Diana Ross (He lives in you) before even knowing about the movie of Lion King. So the text/ lyrics of the song are not associated with the movie for me. Also, when you don't believe in Death, or rather believe that death is simply going HOME, you don't feel the same sadness about things, for example I am not sad when people die, I don't go to funerals because it seems too much unnecessary drama, when in fact it should be a celebration. So when I hear "He lives in you" by Diana Ross, it reminds me that God is in every one of us, we are all part of God, we his/her/it essence is part of me, part of you, and since we are made of the same essence, we are all connected beyond imagination. Separation is only an illusion, in fact after death we re-experience our life from the perspective of everyone we interacted with, and this is the only unpleasant part of death, as we humans will end up hurting others during a lifetime, even with the best intentions, as this is just what having a human experience automatically involves. So I invite you to listen to the Diana Ross version with no preconception, don't connect it with the movie, and see what the song makes you feel then. I used this song during some very deep psilocybin trips and I received incredible revelations about my own life, it left me in tears from the joy of understanding. But I think everyone have different special songs that touch your Soul, so maybe this one is not yours. But when you reslize death doesn't exists, it is hard to feel sadness or being fearful of anything

Your Soul might decide to reincarnate many many times more. It is not mandatory but your Soul might make that decision based on knowledge and understanding that is not available for the human persona. There are souls that never come to Earth. Earth is considered one of the hardest schools where we can incarnate to. There are also other places that are less hard and less physically dense. So reincarnation is likely but it is not random, not mandatory, and it will be in the end the decision of your soul and soul family. Your soul views an Earthy life as a fleeting moment of illusion, in the context of eternity, it is a specifically designed and planned lesson plan that your agrees to and help design, with the collaboration of your entire soul group, as their lesson plans are intertwined with yours. So it is a very methodically designed process and you are fully participating in tbe design, depending on what is the next life's objective and learning plan, for you, and for everyone else that you will interact with closely. So your Soul might choose to reincarnate to Earth, it might choose to reincarnate to somewhere easier, it might choose not to reincarnate, or it might choose to take a long break, stay at HOME for a while and decide later. But you have to understand that your Soul is not human, it has no human fears and thoughts, and sometimes it will willingly agree to difficult Earth lifetimes because it has a very specific purpose in mind, something it wants to achieve… But same as here, we have free will here, and we have free will there. You don't have to be afraid of reincarnation because reincarnation is not random and it is not punishment. It is simply a learning oppurtunity that your soul might or might not decide to sign up for. Many people believe in karma but karma is just an energy, it is not punishment, simply the Soul might want to experience things that it doesn't have knowledge about or have the opportunity to correct precious Earthly errors. What essentially the Soul is trying to learn is Love. On the other side, everything is made of Love, so the soul comes to a human body to experience and learn about Love in an environment that has little love and lots of adversity. It is like a muscle. Without heavy weights, the muscle will not grow. Earth is the place with the heavy weights

Also. There is a violin solo in the Diana Ross version and during a psilocybin trip, that part took me to a different dimensional space where some answers opened up for me, so I kept listening to the same song maybe about a hundred times during a psilocybin trip, and the violin solo would literally threw me into somewhere, different internal space, different dimension, different frequency, but I was almost not in my body, and such amazing revelations came that I kept sobbing, from joy, to the point where I could hardly breath as both my nose was blocked up. So during psilocybin, this song performed miracles for me, took me to a completely different awareness and frequency. I hope I find another song that does this with psilocybin as I have already listened to this one hundreds of times. And it was not even the singing that did it, it was the violin solo.

I'll give it a listen for sure. I just don't believe in god or heaven or anything like that at all. I'm not afraid of death, just the pain of it and not succeeding in it. That song reminds me of my deceased father of whom I believe I played a role in his death ,so I live with enormous guilt to his suffering/pain and death. Also it reminds me of the pain I've caused my mother with my existence. Only death will end my pain. It's not home for me. It's just the end of pain and existence for me, which won't even bring peace, but at least I'll be nothing. Will no nothing and unable to know anything. That's how I want to be.

 

[Esokabat]

I'll give it a listen for sure. I just don't believe in god or heaven or anything like that at all. I'm not afraid of death, just the pain of it and not succeeding in it. That song reminds me of my deceased father of whom I believe I played a role in his death ,so I live with enormous guilt to his suffering/pain and death. Also it reminds me of the pain I've caused my mother with my existence. Only death will end my pain. It's not home for me. It's just the end of pain and existence for me, which won't even bring peace, but at least I'll be nothing. Will no nothing and unable to know anything. That's how I want to be.

I applaud that fact that in spite of the fact that you don't believe in anything, you remained so civil in this thread. Your mom and dad continue to exist but their earthly personalities are long gone. They are pure love now and all they feel for you is love. There is no forgiveness as there is nothing to forgive. We are supposed to make human mistakes while experiencing a human life. Whatever personality traits your parents had, those do not exist anymore. They are pure love and they will be greeting you with joy and love at the time of your CTB. And I know you don't believe me but there is something deep inside you that still knows the truth. It is not required that someone believes in this, no religion, no faith is required. At the time of CTB, the truth will be revealed to you, to everyone equally. No need to believe, no need for religions, no need for prayer, no need to have faith. I thank you for sharing your feelings, and being so civil and kind about disagreeing.

So you assume that every animal and plants have soul? What if the soul is a creation of our brain evolution?

Isnt time a perception of our brain?

I've read so many about people who went and came back that I prefer not to romanticize death.

Time is part of the physical universe, a factor similar to energy, mass, speed. Time is not the creation of the brain, as time is used in calculations in physics such as special relativity. Depending on the speed of an object, time can speed up or slow down, called time dilation, regardless of what our brain think or percieves. You can read about the twin experiment that explains how time can dilate based on an object's speed.
So time is definitely a real factor in the physical universe regardless of what our brain thinks. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Twin_paradox

If you want to understand a bit more how the physical universe can be affected by consciousness, which exists outside of space and time, I would read the double slit experiment. As far as romanticizing death, you cannot romanticise something that doesn't exist. Death is an illusion, it doesn't exist. There is nothing to romanticize. Many people that died clinically during surgery or accident often don't even realize they have died, it is that continous. They might just all of a sudden find themselves at the ceiling of the operating room, but they don't realize they have died, they are just surprised why they are all of a sudden at ceiling level. As far as animals and plants, and everything physically alive contains the same source energy, I would prefer call it source energy as the word Soul has to much religious baggage and the truth is not perfectly captured by any human religion. Each religion contains a small spec of truth, from different angles, but none of them are fully accurate