Things have been looking up in a way…the situation I live in hasn't really changed, my little sister still hurts herself which makes us really sad and feel hopeless. But today we talked, and she seemed to like the idea of starting a streak, for at least a week without cutting, so even if she does end up breaking the streak she'll still be hurting herself less often, if she keeps at it maybe even only 4 times a month.
Me though, I feel loved, especially by my boyfriend who I met in September. We were talking last night and he just took any chance he could to say he loved me. I had been looking at my older photos from almost 3 months ago and was taken aback at how bad my skin was…but he still liked me and said he barely even noticed.
We really do strive for a simple life, things have looked a little more possible lately, and though it hasn't been decided I feel like it's unlikely I'll be moving in with my friend…I just think they already have to much on their hands and they're realizing how much I'd add to that. And I've slowly come to accept that I'll probably just be living with my family until I've gotten the savings plus disability money.
That been sad I don't exactly regret all my reasoning for wanting to die, it still makes sense to me but I want to try to find happiness, at least one more time.
Me though, I feel loved, especially by my boyfriend who I met in September. We were talking last night and he just took any chance he could to say he loved me. I had been looking at my older photos from almost 3 months ago and was taken aback at how bad my skin was…but he still liked me and said he barely even noticed.
We really do strive for a simple life, things have looked a little more possible lately, and though it hasn't been decided I feel like it's unlikely I'll be moving in with my friend…I just think they already have to much on their hands and they're realizing how much I'd add to that. And I've slowly come to accept that I'll probably just be living with my family until I've gotten the savings plus disability money.
That been sad I don't exactly regret all my reasoning for wanting to die, it still makes sense to me but I want to try to find happiness, at least one more time.
