Your last pleasure before ctb?

[S like suicide]

Once you have made the decision to die and do ctb, what will be the last pleasure you will indulge in?

-A favorite food? which one? a song? a movie? hugging a teddy bear? smelling something that makes you think beautiful things? admiring the sky? listening to old messages from people who love you? tell me I'm curious ....

I would like to eat something good(the famous "Last dinner" of Leonardo da Vinci!!lol)like pizza and a chocolate cake maybe a Sacher one,and looking at the sky and the stars...with the hope i will go there!

 

[Asylum]

I will indulge in the pleasure of knowing i am just about to CTB

 

[Bedrock48]

Seeing the night sky and maybe even the sea. Roasting some marshmallows and probably listening to some good music.

 

[ClownMe]

In my last days i plan to have sex with a prostitute/escort (if im still a virgin). Ive decided that my last meal will be some McDonald's and i plan to ctb on New Year's Eve after watching the Sydney fireworks one last time.

As for movies i want to watch in the days before i ctb and the last songs im going to listen to before i ctb:

Songs:

-Holding Back The Years by Simply Red

-Dont Dream It's Over by Crowded House

-Streets Of Your Town by The Go Betweens

-I Have Nothing by Whitney Houston

Movies:

Not so sure on the movies at the moment, ill definetly watch The Mummy (the original, not that shitty Tom Cruise remake), Executive Decision and probably some other movies from the 90's and 80's because those are my favourite movies.

 

[LenkaX]

I will not do anything, like always, because my life is so empty.

 

[AE2021]

Mine is similar to yours. A pizza and something chocolate to eat and a nice walk out in nature. That would be all. There isn't anything that I would want to reminisce about or say goodbye to. It has been a long, hard struggle and I just want to take my leave of it.

 

[Snatsbats]

Coke and hookers

 

[WornOutLife]

I would like to have DMT again before ctb, it was so amazing.
But before that, I would like to have some fun with a girl, get drunk af, eat lots of junk food, smoke cigarettes and weed and finally get that goddamn DMT and maybe dying without even realizing lol.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just before I die, I want to listen to the song Funeral Cry by Dark Sanctuary. It is what my username is named after. The song is about wanting death to set you free from your pain. It would be appropriate for the final moments. I would love to do this while looking at nature, maybe a mountain scene.

 

[rata1]

a bottle of red wine, one last cigarette or joint at the edge of cliffs or a hill with nice panorama to see the sea or the stars and then go to the near cliff and jump into the land of peace. no music, just the sound of nature....

 

[Pookie]

Just before I die, I want to listen to the song Funeral Cry by Dark Sanctuary. It is what my username is named after. The song is about wanting death to set you free from your pain. It would be appropriate for the final moments. I would love to do this while looking at nature, maybe a mountain scene.

I just listened to it now. Beautiful and powerful. And very long ha ha. I added it to my playlist.

 

[S like suicide]

In my last days i plan to have sex with a prostitute/escort (if im still a virgin). Ive decided that my last meal will be some McDonald's and i plan to ctb on New Year's Eve after watching the Sydney fireworks one last time.

As for movies i want to watch in the days before i ctb and the last songs im going to listen to before i ctb:

Songs:

-Holding Back The Years by Simply Red

-Dont Dream It's Over by Crowded House

-Streets Of Your Town by The Go Betweens

-I Have Nothing by Whitney Houston

Movies:

Not so sure on the movies at the moment, ill definetly watch The Mummy (the original, not that shitty Tom Cruise remake), Executive Decision and probably some other movies from the 90's and 80's because those are my favourite movies.

A lovely plan!!i like the songs and the movies that you choose

 

[deadby30]

My girlfriend passed away in February of this year. I'll go through my hard drive and rewatch all of our videos together, look at the pictures and try and relive those memories one last time.

(Also, hi! I'm new here. I meant to make my first post something of an introduction, but this thread caught my eye. My story is a little long so i'll save it for another time. Glad to be able to finally post here!)

 

[S like suicide]

My girlfriend passed away in February of this year. I'll go through my hard drive and rewatch all of our videos together, look at the pictures and try and relive those memories one last time.

(Also, hi! I'm new here. I meant to make my first post something of an introduction, but this thread caught my eye. My story is a little long so i'll save it for another time. Glad to be able to finally post here!)

Hey Welcome!!!!! i'm so sorry for your girlfriend!

 

[deadby30]

Hey Welcome!!!!! i'm so sorry for your girlfriend!

Thank you! Me too :(
It's the reason that I'm here unfortunately

 

[S like suicide]

Thank you! Me too :(
It's the reason that I'm here unfortunately

Feel free to talk about your pain whenever you want ... many here will be ready to listen to you without judgment and to comfort you.Pm me if i can help you,i will. I send you a virtual hug!

 

[verloren]

Have good sex one last time

 

[lanax09]

listen to some songs, maybe talk to a couple friends, relish in the delight of being completely free from any responsibilities and the knowledge that my mum will never pick on me again, write something. I'd plan it for a rainy night so I could chill with the raindrops. probably vape a lil.

 

[deadby30]

Feel free to talk about your pain whenever you want ... many here will be ready to listen to you without judgment and to comfort you.Pm me if i can help you,i will. I send you a virtual hug!

I appreciate the hell out of that ❤
I'm too new to PM yet but I will absolutely take you up on that when I can. Thank you so much

 

[greyhound]

Drugs, been doing a bunch of them the past few months. I mean if my life is going to be over soon it's not like I can really fuck it up.

Holy shit are opiates ever addictive though, I've done them a few times in the past but not for months at a time. I bought one of those timed locking safe things to stop myself from using every day. I figure physical addition is probably not something I really want right now.

I always found sex overrated. Been getting massages from this fantastic deep tissue masseuse though. Figure I might as well enjoy having a body while I still do.

I think I want to eat a bunch of food from nice restaurants before I exit too.

 

[ElizabethsFault]

Once you have made the decision to die and do ctb, what will be the last pleasure you will indulge in?

-A favorite food? which one? a song? a movie? hugging a teddy bear? smelling something that makes you think beautiful things? admiring the sky? listening to old messages from people who love you? tell me I'm curious ....

I would like to eat something good(the famous "Last dinner" of Leonardo da Vinci!!lol)like pizza and a chocolate cake maybe a Sacher one,and looking at the sky and the stars...with the hope i will go there!

If I could feel pleasure, I don't think I'd need to CTB.

 

[Hurt]

Beer! And maybe sex.

 

[Eire1992]

Music. I have a playlist put together that lasts about an hour that I plan to play. The middle of it has various pieces, The Smiths, Julien Baker, Radiohead. But to me, most importantly, it opens and closes with On the Nature of Daylight by Max Richter. One of the most beautiful and haunting pieces of music ever composed.

 

[Ch92921]

What I do pleasure I wont tell you, private.

 

[Wrennie]

Listening to my favorite song, maybe? But it would only serve to fuel my sadness and pain instead of functioning as a source of pleasure, because It would no longer conjure up the creative mental imagery in my brain that it used to. Back when I still had my health I thought I was going to go on to be an animator, so I'd choreograph "scenes" in my mind to certain music. I'm too miserable to do that anymore.

 

[hermes]

I have heard so much about Ayahuasca. I would love to try it once.

If not for COVID I was hoping to visit Peru/Mexico this year to try Ayahuasca.

 

[Rayzieka]

I'd probably just take a whole lotta ativan that I've been stockpiling to make me less nervous. My pharmacy keeps refilling my prescription without asking and I don't bother complaining and just take it. I probably have enough to knock out an elephant.

 

[Ch92921]

I'd probably just take a whole lotta ativan that I've been stockpiling to make me less nervous. My pharmacy keeps refilling my prescription without asking and I don't bother complaining and just take it. I probably have enough to knock out an elephant.

Huh? Pharmasist dont have the right to give recepie. Only doctors?

 

[Rayzieka]

Huh? Pharmasist dont have the right to give recepie. Only doctors?

I'm assuming my doctor is giving the go ahead. If shes not then no idea.
They must be assuming I'm actually taking them.
All I know is once a month when i go to the pharmacy to get a med I'm actually taking they say "you have 10 ready".
And i just take them all. All good on my end, lets me feel like I'm hoarding. I've never thrown away a bottle i didn't use so I just have a massive heap of half full pill bottles from trials as well. Originally my plan was to save up enough for 30 different medications and take my chances to ctb. But i have better plans now thankfully. Still love the feeling I'm doing something illegal though, its a funny feeling.

 

[nightnightnitrite]

I would love to go on a walk around the pond I live close by to feel the sun on my face and get a breath of fresh air. After I'll walk to my favorite pizza place and get my favorite custom made pizza. If I still have enough left over, I'll head to the dispensary and get myself an 1/8th to take it home while I listen to my playlist that makes me think of my late teen years as I hold my favorite stuffed animal that reminds me of my father who passed away.