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snail_in_a_garden
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- Mar 8, 2022
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October 19th 2020 my dear friend ended her life by using a method through this site. I've got no one to vent to so here's my letter
Yesterday marked two years of your absence. I miss you. I fucking miss you and I wish I could have said goodbye. I know you have wanted this since you were so little I know you had this planned months in advance and that no one would have been able to talk you out of it. I wish I could have given you one last hug, heard you laugh one last fucking time i'm so angry that you left with no notice although I get it. I do. Your last words we're on this site and I come back each time I need to "hear" you. I'd do anything to hear you laugh again. I'd do anything to talk to you again. I have so much to tell you. I'll be 25 next month and you'll still be 22. I'm angry for you, angry at your family, the people who hurt you, the world that made you hate yourself. God I miss you. I look for you everywhere, I think about you always. This grief weighs so heavy on all of us who lost you. It feels like you're slipping away. It feels like you're memory is fading far too fast im not ready for that yet. I just want to be near you again. I wish you knew how many lives were permanently altered the second we discovered you were gone. I miss you and I love you so much it aches to breathe: Your birthday is in 10 days, I'll make you a cake as I will continue to do each year. Please tell me what cake you want please send me some sort of sign that you're still here. I've cried so hard for you. and I'm afraid it won't stop. I'm afraid I'll never stop crying for you. about you. because of you. please stop by somehow soon. I need you here.
Yesterday marked two years of your absence. I miss you. I fucking miss you and I wish I could have said goodbye. I know you have wanted this since you were so little I know you had this planned months in advance and that no one would have been able to talk you out of it. I wish I could have given you one last hug, heard you laugh one last fucking time i'm so angry that you left with no notice although I get it. I do. Your last words we're on this site and I come back each time I need to "hear" you. I'd do anything to hear you laugh again. I'd do anything to talk to you again. I have so much to tell you. I'll be 25 next month and you'll still be 22. I'm angry for you, angry at your family, the people who hurt you, the world that made you hate yourself. God I miss you. I look for you everywhere, I think about you always. This grief weighs so heavy on all of us who lost you. It feels like you're slipping away. It feels like you're memory is fading far too fast im not ready for that yet. I just want to be near you again. I wish you knew how many lives were permanently altered the second we discovered you were gone. I miss you and I love you so much it aches to breathe: Your birthday is in 10 days, I'll make you a cake as I will continue to do each year. Please tell me what cake you want please send me some sort of sign that you're still here. I've cried so hard for you. and I'm afraid it won't stop. I'm afraid I'll never stop crying for you. about you. because of you. please stop by somehow soon. I need you here.