Venting You know what I hate?

[TheGoodGuy]

That I have no friends to do MDMA with! I constantly check on r/MDMA and when people posts photos or videos about how they are bonding with their beloved friends and "become a big family" I just feel so sad I want to cry i.e. this post https://www.reddit.com/r/MDMA/comments/9w6g3c/came_as_12_friends_left_with_one_family/

not 1 or 2 friend no fucking 12!!! young people out there having the time of their lives bonding over this magnificent drug and all I have to look forward to is doing it alone next week. I actually HATE seeing other people happy I know people don´t think it´s alright to think this way but if I am not happy it really helps if others aren´t too I don´t want to hear about my friend who just won 1100$ and half year earlier won 7000$ even though he comes from a upper middle class and have a trustfund with 34.000$ in it while I can barely afford the essentials, I don´t wanna hear or see people posting all of their beautiful and fun pictures from exotic trips they take while living life while I will never be able to!

Sorry this was actually supposed to be a rant about my envy to people who have the privileged to do MDMA with friends and at a rave.

Also hearing all these stories about people doing MDMA with their girlfriends and having sex on MDMA when I know I will never experience such a wonderful experience.

 

[Circles]

That I have no friends to do MDMA with! I constantly check on r/MDMA and when people posts photos or videos about how they are bonding with their beloved friends and "become a big family" I just feel so sad I want to cry i.e. this post https://www.reddit.com/r/MDMA/comments/9w6g3c/came_as_12_friends_left_with_one_family/

not 1 or 2 friend no fucking 12!!! young people out there having the time of their lives bonding over this magnificent drug and all I have to look forward to is doing it alone next week. I actually HATE seeing other people happy I know people don´t think it´s alright to think this way but if I am not happy it really helps if others aren´t too I don´t want to hear about my friend who just won 1100$ and half year earlier won 7000$ even though he comes from a upper middle class and have a trustfund with 34.000$ in it while I can barely afford the essentials, I don´t wanna hear or see people posting all of their beautiful and fun pictures from exotic trips they take while living life while I will never be able to!

Sorry this was actually supposed to be a rant about my envy to people who have the privileged to do MDMA with friends and at a rave.

Also hearing all these stories about people doing MDMA with their girlfriends and having sex on MDMA when I know I will never experience such a wonderful experience.

You've reminded me of this video I saw on YouTube. I understand the sentiment knowing how there's so much of life I'll never experience especially getting to what should feel like the epitome of human existence.

 

[TAW122]

If I had to admit it, yes, sometimes my jealously does creep up when I see happy people enjoying their lives with their friends, girl/boyfriends, husbands/wives, and what not. However, I try to also think that these people also have shitty times too and they may also go through a shitty divorce, breakup, or whatever and life will suck big time for them too. I don't want to try to give you false hope, but that's just how I take the situation, YMMV.

 

[Dead Meat]

MYSELF

 

[BaconCheeseburger]

I enjoy smoking weed. My last boyfriend's dad was dodgy as fuck (!) and had a stash of it that he gave to us (well, my boyfriend didn't use it so I did). It's good fun, but I can only do it when I'm somewhere other than my house (I live with my parents), and I'm not friends with anyone who has any right now. Oh well.