Placo
Life and Death
- Feb 14, 2024
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What would you write in that email to young you?
"How did I do?"
This is what I would write in mine, nothing else.
"How did I do?"
This is what I would write in mine, nothing else.
I would write: End it NOW! The future is hell!!!!What would you write in that email to young you?
"How did I do?"
This is what I would write in mine, nothing else.
Out of curiosity, what even are your goals? I assumed that the only goal that you have is to die. I didn't expect you to have other goalsDon't watch TV , youtube , sports anything that doesn't move your goals forward .
My only real goal is suicide asap. other goals like fix sleeping problem , save make money , help suicide asap.Out of curiosity, what even are your goals? I assumed that the only goal that you have is to die. I didn't expect you to have other goals
I could have (and actually was coming here) to say this very thing. Another thread asks about evil people and if they know they are evil. I dunno about everyone, but she knew. Not only did she know, she REVELED in it. The more she could isolate and rip tiny pieces off her target (me), and exact pain and suffering, the happier she was. The relief I felt when that woman was palpable. Unfortunately, while her passing gave me a contentment and peace I had never felt before, that feeling did not last. Not because I missed her, or felt any guilt for my reaction to her passing (God I hope it was painful) but because I am old enough and somewhat educated and realize that the neural pathways in my brain are set. This was her "gift" to me. Enough prolonged torture and manipulation as a child that my brain is well and truly fucked.Run away, now.
take something to write with, food and water and maybe your plushies but you don't need as much as you think, just get out, go, either you'll die or stumble upon better circumstances somehow and believe it or not, both are preferable to how you'll end up otherwise. You may end up in a worse situation but you can try to improve it, you'll still be better off being away from her. Get away from mom as soon as possible and stay away to the best of your ability, she will make it extremely difficult, not because she loves you but because she NEEDS to control you, keep you small and self-loathing. Trust your intuition, do not trust a word she says, get and stay away at all costs.
Fuck this is relatable... Well, mine is still alive and I usually don't want her dead but it depends lol... Even down to having nightmares about her, she's one of the few things that I do have nightmares about...I could have (and actually was coming here) to say this very thing. Another thread asks about evil people and if they know they are evil. I dunno about everyone, but she knew. Not only did she know, she REVELED in it. The more she could isolate and rip tiny pieces off her target (me), and exact pain and suffering, the happier she was. The relief I felt when that woman was palpable. Unfortunately, while her passing gave me a contentment and peace I had never felt before, that feeling did not last. Not because I missed her, or felt any guilt for my reaction to her passing (God I hope it was painful) but because I am old enough and somewhat educated and realize that the neural pathways in my brain are set. This was her "gift" to me. Enough prolonged torture and manipulation as a child that my brain is well and truly fucked.
I tend to think that if I could have just died when I was born the world would have been a much better place. But I also know that is another gift from dear old Mom. Oh well ... I'm still here. For now. For what it's worth. And she only hurts me now in the middle of the night when she creeps into my nightmares.
Yo same lolTake your parents guns and shoot yourself if you can. But lets be real the email would probably be ignored lmao.