You have 2 months, no money and no obligations before you ctb, what do you do?

[Blurry_Buildings]

Definetely an "asking for a friend" kind of thread lol, but what would you personally do?

 

[username8888]

I would just eat green lentils and water with ease finally. And walk daily. And sleep without remorse. Thanks you made my moment with this thread.

 

[R_N]

Lay in the grass somewhere and watch the night sky.

 

[Ondine0000ff]

Walk aimlessly, going on adventures in the nearby countryside or visit abandoned buildings…

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

walk around and sleep

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just try to sleep as much as possible. No matter what I see sleeping as the best way to pass the time as it's the closest thing to not existing after all, I see it as better to be completely unaware of this existence, simply being conscious is tiring and just leads to suffering.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I understand your question the way that after 2 months CTB is planned anyway? If CTB is the outcome this way or that way I'd consider CTB immediately.

 

[uniqueusername39]

2 months gives me plenty of time to prepare. I would be happy to have these two months. But to do so, I'd have to suddenly quit job and school which would raise suspicion. In reality, I would have to be grinding until my self-inflicted end.

I would take that time to finish cataloguing my doll collection. I have over a hundred of dolls, and I've been wanting to catalogue them since last year, but never had the time nor energy to just sit down and do that. I would start putting price tags on them too so it wouldn't be difficult for my sisters to figure out how much to resell them for if they ever need some extra cash.

I'd like to sell them now, actually, so I could keep the money somewhere and save my family the hassle of selling them. It would hurt to let them go, but at least I get to look at my girls one last time before they get adopted by their new owners. My family and boyfriend would be REALLY concerned if I started selling my dolls though, they know how much I love them and how each of them has a name, personality, and story. so i'll just have to keep a log book somewhere for my sisters to find in the aftermath...

i would watch my boyfriend play his games all day. i would gladly spoil him. i'd watch everything he wants me to watch with him. i want to give him good memories. i love him so much.

i'd blow my money shopping for groceries to lift some financial burden from my parents.

i'd make sure to leave behind funds for my dog. i've saved up quite a bit. i'll leave it to my sisters because it's them who i trust with my dog.

i'll listen to all the music.

and yes...i would sleep plenty.

this was nice to fantasize about. i know reality would be less pleasant.

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

It's awful how we are obligated to keep our ctb plans secret from others. Yet I understand your dilemma.

 

[Lookoutbelow]

Walk aimlessly, going on adventures in the nearby countryside or visit abandoned buildings…

I love and am drawn to abandoned buildings. Never really tried to analyze it. What do you think it is about them?

 

[Mistiie]

If it was literally 2 months before it suddenly went black, not just standard C-ing-TB where you take medication or whatever other method you choose, and if it was like I clicked a big red button that offed me instantly, I would go out and do whatever the fuck I want. Talk to people. Be a complete weirdo. Prank people. Interrupt news segments for shits and giggles. Tell my friends to hang out more cause I'm bored. Just in general enjoy the last bits of my life because it won't matter in the end and I will definitely be dead.

If you have 2 months, why not enjoy it as much as you can? Fortunately, I don't need money or obligations to do this.

Oh, and I'd probably help my family out. I guess that comes as an obligation but even then, I enjoy being around them. Well, I would if there was a guaranteed date of ending.

 

[Ernest1964]

Get a couple of credit cards and spend my last days and nights living a life that would put Caligula to shame!!!

 

[L0nely]

Go for long walks, sleep, listen to music, maybe re-watch my favourite series, do everything that has to be done before my passing (selling my things, making sure I got no debts, closing bank account etc) so that my family doesn't have to that.

 

[tiger b]

Pass the time here...

 

[edu0z]

I would leave all my projects and jobs, and start having a low profile if not a ghost... I would take my money and spend the first month playing online poker at cash th tables day and night, sleeping little, trying to earn the most amount of money for my family. .. I know I could earn a lot but I don't have the guts since I'm very afraid of losing money when other people depends on me, but if I'm going to die in two months and my death is certain then I guess I would realize that it doesn't matter anymore if I lose it and that would allow me to concentrate and analyze situations well.

Once I had finished the first month and had earned a good sum of money, I would leave everything to my family and friends...then on the first day of the second month I would put on my worst clothes, leave everything in the house, and just walk out the door and I would start walking without any destination, trying to find peace within myself before leaving this world.

It sounds so silly now as I read it... but it's what I would do.

 

[Ondine0000ff]

I love and am drawn to abandoned buildings. Never really tried to analyze it. What do you think it is about them?

Mhh… Maybe I just feel at home? I feel like I have something in common with shut down offices or abandoned facilities … I just feel this nostalgia and peacefulness when I think about places like those, which I don't really understand because I never worked in an office or something like that. What do you feel when you think of abandoned places?

 

[loopdaloop]

probably stop engaging in things that I don't care about (news, politics, family/work drama etc.) and just trying to feel as good and healthy as possible during this period (e.g. walking in nature, sleeping a lot, meditating, writing down thoughts leading up to the final day), and mentally preparing to rest in peace

 

[gbi2]

I almost been inthis very situation, the exception being I became unemployed in August and had secured another jopb witn the asame organisation (The NHS) within7 days of being unemplyed. I was unemployed because my line managaer manipulated and coerced me, and I succeeded in being offered nother ole, only for it to be blocked by that very lien manager, out of spite.

The NHS has plenty of people like this in their non-clinical roles and we know from recent news how warnings about bad people are ignored with terrible consequences. They are full of people who are more focused on their own career than they are on health care. I never had a single complaint against me. What happened was, I complained about lack of training and deliberate neglect that affected my ability to perform better than the acceptable standard.

I was bullied of of my job by the very institutioan thet si asuppoosed to be there to help us. Do not trust the NHS. It has psychopaths in it's ranks.

I ahve lived for 2 months with barely any money waitng to start again in the NHS but teh retracted their offer. I am now jobless, penniless and have no obligation to anyone.

I Am attemtping to find a way to go as soon as I can.

I recommend anyne in a simliar situation to think about your self. Do what you want, spend what you want, take what you want;/

 

[Lookoutbelow]

Mhh… Maybe I just feel at home? I feel like I have something in common with shut down offices or abandoned facilities … I just feel this nostalgia and peacefulness when I think about places like those, which I don't really understand because I never worked in an office or something like that. What do you feel when you think of abandoned places?

I think of the past. I imagine what it was like in its glory. I also wander why it was abandoned. I think it lets me escape the present moment (which is usually psychologically painful) and allows me to mentally transport to a different time.

 

[Ondine0000ff]

I think of the past. I imagine what it was like in its glory. I also wander why it was abandoned. I think it lets me escape the present moment (which is usually psychologically painful) and allows me to mentally transport to a different time.

Interesting! Personally it just helps me calm down and make the void in my head. So I guess it is a form of eqcapism for me too :)

 

[isthisit?]

Wow, this question really made me think about my life. S
probably spend the rest of my time thinking about the good old times, like the time when me and some of my friends used to play Minecraft a long time ago on the ps3. Back then no one was really thinking about their future.

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

I will probably eat good food in gastronomic restaurant and prepare some note for my loved ones.

 

[CRT Seal TV]

I would throw away my phone. I would wear the warmest clothes I could think of. Travel to my exes flat, give her a cuddle, a kiss, and wish her the best. Then I would take a plane ride, as far as my money would take me (if money was no object then mongolia). Then I would travel and walk in a straight line, until two months pass. Or I die of something completely preventable. If I ended up around lots of people, I would just keep asking to sleep with them (mostly just to cuddle).

 

[stoiccactus]

Throw your phone in the sewer and nap for two months straight

 

[Meditation guide]

I love and am drawn to abandoned buildings. Never really tried to analyze it. What do you think it is about them?

You should watch Dan Bell's videos on Youtube. He explores "bandos" as he calls them. I've watched his videos for years.