NSFW you ever wish you would be r*ped

[spypilot896]

its a fantasy I have all the time Idk why but I just wanna be pinned down and fucked painfully
is it just me ?

 

[ForeverCaHa]

It's one of my more iffy fantasies. In my case I think it stems from severe self-esteem issues, plus a generally weird relationship with sex.

 

[spypilot896]

It's one of my more iffy fantasies. In my case I think it stems from severe self-esteem issues, plus a generally weird relationship with sex.

same , my bf didn't like to cuddle that much , I wanted to cuddle , he wanted to fuck me all the time , I was always on bottom , it hurt , I enjoyed it tho

 

[Namelesa]

Yea I have thought this as well. Partially its me being a masochistic submissive whore, another is me thinking I deserve pain and to be used as I think I am a bad person sometimes, me wanting to please people in whatever way I can even if its not what I want to do and to fill a feeling of emptiness I have.

 

[spypilot896]

Yea I have thought this as well. Partially its me being a masochistic submissive whore, another is me thinking I deserve pain and to be used as I think I am a bad person sometimes, me wanting to please people in whatever way I can even if its not what I want to do and to fill a feeling of emptiness I have.

relatable , Im not that into masochism tho , I also sometimes feel like I deserve it

 

[LAPD]

Less so rape, more complete domination. I would love to just completely leave myself at a partner's mercy and let him control me in every way. I think this is because in my daily life, I feel so lost and aimless. Letting someone take control of me in bed would give me some purpose and direction lol

 

[ForeverCaHa]

Yea I have thought this as well. Partially its me being a masochistic submissive whore, another is me thinking I deserve pain and to be used as I think I am a bad person sometimes, me wanting to please people in whatever way I can even if its not what I want to do and to fill a feeling of emptiness I have.

Very relatable. Feeling like I deserve it, only having use as a sex object and all that. It's definitely one of my more damaging traits, and I feel that if I fail with my current CTB plan I'd just end up falling into old habits and self-destructing.

Less so rape, more complete domination. I would love to just completely leave myself at a partner's mercy and let him control me in every way. I think this is because in my daily life, I feel so lost and aimless. Letting someone take control of me in bed would give me some purpose and direction lol

I think this is definitely my reason for being submissive too. I like being given a purpose, so having clear instructions/orders is such a relief

 

[grapevoid]

No, but when I hear about r*pe I sometimes fantasize about the violence that would ensue if a MF tried me.

 

[BloomingAzaleas]

Used to but now I feel like I will gut anyone who touches me

 

[whitetaildeer]

Yes. Not because it arouses me, but because I'd feel less ashamed of still being traumatized by getting sexually assaulted through coercion as a child. I still sometimes wonder if this was actually sexual assault or if I'm just being dramatic.

 

[grapevoid]

Yes. Not because it arouses me, but because I'd feel less ashamed of still being traumatized by getting sexually assaulted through coercion as a child. I still sometimes wonder if this was actually sexual assault or if I'm just being dramatic.

If you're not sure, it was assault. I feel pretty confident in that, honestly.

Used to but now I feel like I will gut anyone who touches me

I feel this way even about non sexual touch that I did not authorize. lol!!

 

[music]

i don't have the words to explain why without seeming dismissive of the damage that would cause but being sure one way or the other whether something like that has happened to me would be progress. it would make some of my issues, albeit minor ones, make more sense and even though it would undoubtedly make them worse i think there would be more to direct either myself to in recovery, or those who know me to in my premature ending. i do not want that to happen but an intense trauma could get me out of my years long limbo. it's crossed my mind in passing

edit- i'm almost sure that it didn't but i get dreams which sow doubt

 

[StrugglingSienna]

I don't know, maybe sometimes? I have a FWB who is definitely very dominant in bed and makes me feel like I'm being used, like I'm being of use to him, like I'm servicing him, degrades me a little, hurts me a little. But he's the perfect synthesis of my need to be abused and my need to be loved on, because he is also incredibly caring and he makes sure he's fully inside me comfortably before going as hard as he wants. He does try to pleasure me in other ways, he will suck my dick . . . poorly, that is, and I don't have the heart to tell him but it's okay, he makes up for it in ass eating and makeout skills.

And during the rest of the night when we're not having sex, we're cuddling constantly, I love constantly having physical contact with someone there are so many different non-overtly-sexual ways to touch and be touched and it's just so lovely. We're having good conversation and he's a sweet, intelligent, sensitive man when he's not putting on his dominant persona which I really love so we talk for hours, we watch a movie or two, gradually get more and more inebriated on weed and tequila and ketamine and psychs until I pass out in his giant manly arms, and then he gets us breakfast and we have sex one more time and then cuddle for a little longer before it's finally time to go.

Okay, I kind of forgot why I even started writing this post in the first place. But God, I miss him.

 

[Crematoryy]

Less so rape, more complete domination. I would love to just completely leave myself at a partner's mercy and let him control me in every way. I think this is because in my daily life, I feel so lost and aimless. Letting someone take control of me in bed would give me some purpose and direction lol

You would feel that you belong to something or someone; that you make a difference; that you are wanted and thought about daily.

 

[needthebus]

no

 

[Toxinebulaic]

Yeah. Being abused really fucks with your conception of what's supposed to be pleasurable, what you're supposed to love and be aroused by. But I want somebody to finally just tell me what they want and how they feel, even and especially if it hurts me. I don't want to matter.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

I think most have fantasized about it. As a guy, I can't say that I wouldn't enjoy some extraordinarily smoking hot chick having her way with me.

 

[Mav]

I wish I never was!

 

[Lyn]

For real... No. I don't even find it appealing as some sort of "self"harm thought, like some people I've known.
But as a part of roleplay - yes, that's one of my fantasies.

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

No, my fantasies are about and specific people and those specific people include actual rapists and more!

 

[Rymrgand]

I have thought about it, yes. Not only as part of CNC with a partner, but also like a real assault.

I'm not exactly why, but I guess it would made me feel wanted. At least I'm being of use to someone. Especially if I was in a long term relationship with them. I have talked in a safe way with some people who was clearly predatory, and after they told me that they owned me, I was a bit too happy. I guess I must be pretty cool, if they are spending so much effort to manipulate me.

I know there are people with kinks like that, but I kinda prefer when they have no limits and no care about me or respect me. I guess, even if I wasn't sexually assaulted, I have been all my life abused, manipulated and lied, so I feel more comfortable with toxic relationships.

Almost in a completely different way to this, I have thought about being abused in my childhood too. I think I have wished that because it would make more clear that I was abused. I hate how a lot of people think that I have normal parents. If that had happened, more people would choose my side, and I would have been understood easier.

 

[LonelyMe]

Sure. If it was a hot girl, I'd be fine with getting sexually assaulted.

 

[nails]

i'm not sure if my response belongs here, but i'll reply anyways, lol.
i occasionally wish that something horrifically traumatic would happen to me—getting raped, beat up, tortured, stabbed, horribly injured, losing a body part, other shit like that. i would say that i fantasize about it, but that word usually has sexual implications for a lot of people, and this isn't a sexual thing at all. it occasionally crosses over into sexual territory, but so does everything.
(prepare for edginess) i know i don't deserve anything like that and this isn't a punishment thing. i just really need something else to think about. the main reason why i want to ctb has been tormenting me for so long. feeling so much pain over the same shit for years on end is just so draining, lol. i don't feel much pain towards anything else anymore, i just need something new and drastic so i can think about something else other than my issue.
i've been looking into ways to give myself brain damage, ways i could lose an arm, other means of mutilating myself or causing great harm to myself.

tldr; being put in a saw trap would fix me

 

[ForgottenAgain]

Only as a fantasy, something to pretend to do with my boyfriend for instance. Wouldn't want to actually be raped, ever. I'm sure I'd be hurt and traumatised for life. Don't want any stranger touching me nor hurting me.

 

[leloyon]

The trauma I have faced in life has been highly unusual, and I tend to downplay it sometimes or struggle with how it's perceived by others, since most people would not understand or even say that I deserved what I'd been through and paint those who traumatised me as good. So sometimes I have wished that something worse, and more accepted as traumatic, had happened to me instead.
I should have just gone to war or something. I've sometimes considered that; joining the army just so people could actually acknowledge my trauma, that I was traumatised, that I've been through something that is traumatic, that I didn't deserve what happened etc. to legitimise my feelings, both in my own eyes and the eyes of others. Become further traumatised and blame it all on the war, try to pretend I wasn't damaged before.
I don't want to be raped, I'm traumatised and I wish I was traumatised in a way that people could understand. That others could sympathise with, could agree that what happened to me was messed up and undeserved. Whether that be war, child abuse, rape etc.
Then again, I'm more than aware that, even with the changes in society, there's still plenty of downplaying and victim-blaming that rape victims go through. I don't intend to deny or downplay that.

 

[iamanavalanche]

in a way, yeah. ive been raped and sexually abused so many times i think its just my brain trying to normalise the fucked up shit that happened to me and sexualise it. i feel disgusting for feeling this way but i know its fairly normal within SA victims.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I'm guessing it's a fairly common fantasy. At least the domination side of it- otherwise, things like 50 Shades of Grey wouldn't have become so mainstream popular.

I once watched a really interesting documentary around sexual fantasies. It explained that sometimes domination fantasies come about due to feels of guilt/ shame around sex. Seeing as we aren't initiating it, there's less to feel guilty about. That could relate to me seeing as I had a very prudish upbringing.

I think it would only work as a fantasy though. I'm not sure the traits that go with someone who wants to rape are very appealing. Even in terms of roleplay, I guess domination isn't necessarily harmful. Like extreme lust. We're animals at the end of the day. However- if it strays into sadism and humiliating someone- I personally find that more troubling. What are they tapping in to, to feel that?

 

[dead dav]

Yes I imagine being gang raped then strangled to death that just shows how bad my self esteem is tbh

 

[Rymrgand]

I'm guessing it's a fairly common fantasy. At least the domination side of it- otherwise, things like 50 Shades of Grey wouldn't have become so mainstream popular.

I once watched a really interesting documentary around sexual fantasies. It explained that sometimes domination fantasies come about due to feels of guilt/ shame around sex. Seeing as we aren't initiating it, there's less to feel guilty about. That could relate to me seeing as I had a very prudish upbringing.

I think it would only work as a fantasy though. I'm not sure the traits that go with someone who wants to rape are very appealing. Even in terms of roleplay, I guess domination isn't necessarily harmful. Like extreme lust. We're animals at the end of the day. However- if it strays into sadism and humiliating someone- I personally find that more troubling. What are they tapping in to, to feel that?

As a kink, rapeplay, CNC and in general BDSM are really common and they are not really weird or anything. Both being a Dom and being a sub. In fact, I feel like in healthy kink communities, there's more people who enjoy submitting than dominating, especially because I know that a lot of dominants are into it mostly because they enjoy pleasing their partners, instead of because they enjoy the domination itself.

About sadism and humiliation (if it's consented of course), it can be healthy too. As I said, a lot of doms are into it purely because their subs are into it. But even the ones who enjoy it (like myself, since I'm a switch), I think it's about mostly a power fantasy. It's exciting to being in control and being able to mess with someone in a way they enjoy it. It's not necessarily about hatred or that they think they deserve being humiliated. I also play Sid Meier's Civilization to roleplay as an empire and colonize "lesser" people but in real life I'm anti imperialism and anti colonialism.

In any case, I feel like a lot of our answers are taking it literally when OP asked for rape, not only as a consensual fantasy. In my case, for example, my answer was seriously about being raped in a bad way. Not as a kink, but as selfharm.

Not sure what OP meant.

(50 Shades of Grey is trash, btw, I haven't known anyone from a kink community who likes it)

 

[spypilot896]

And during the rest of the night when we're not having sex, we're cuddling constantly, I love constantly having physical contact with someone there are so many different non-overtly-sexual ways to touch and be touched and it's just so lovely. We're having good conversation and he's a sweet, intelligent, sensitive man when he's not putting on his dominant persona which I really love so we talk for hours, we watch a movie or two, gradually get more and more inebriated on weed and tequila and ketamine and psychs until I pass out in his giant manly arms, and then he gets us breakfast and we have sex one more time and then cuddle for a little longer before it's finally time to go.

Okay, I kind of forgot why I even started writing this post in the first place. But God, I miss him.

exactly me , I loved being cuddled by my ex , making out , he made me feel safe , secure , I never drank or popped pills while we made love
I just loved the way he made me feel secure in his arms
I miss mine too