I fucking hate that feeling. It's like tempting fate constantly. I want to move on to the other side so badly and finally die. This life isn't for me. I never was meant for it. And I got this nagging feeling or indescribable mixed emotion tempting me or tangling inside myself that I'm ready to kill myself finally as though my mind and body finally gives me permission to fucking do it already. But then it's only momentary like sand going through my hands I can't hold onto. I just want to go. I'm not meant to stay here anymore. I'm nothing in this world and I'm meant to be nothing forever.
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Darkover
Archangel
- Jul 29, 2021
- 5,653
we are all destined to be nothing forever nothing here is built to last sooner or later everyone dies the thing is to die well
But I want that forever to happen now.
Darkover
Archangel
- Jul 29, 2021
- 5,653
me too if only we had a off switch
LoneMisery
Student
- Jan 23, 2022
- 125
I get so excited when i feel im ready and then this feeling idk where it comes from just makes me hold back. Its not sex drugs food or family. That instinct that keeps me going and keeps me living with pain. I wish i could overcome it like my father did.
Al Cappella
Are we there yet?
- Feb 2, 2022
- 888
It totally comes and goes for me all the time, like on a daily basis. Even when I'm not feeling all that miserable. I've been able to manage it be recognizing that it's only a thought, and to allow it to pass through. In my case it gets triggered by stress, too.
AnestheticVoid
❤️ Dissociatives ❤️
- Feb 17, 2022
- 273
I'm just so fucking tired of being me. :(
SpaceCadet
In a perfect world, nobody would be suicidal
- Feb 27, 2022
- 193
Me too, me too. Funny thing it's alcohol used to make me happy, now it makes me even more suicidal, it's a shame that shouldn't be used with Sn, it really helps overcoming second thoughts.
S like Siren
Enlightened
- Apr 29, 2021
- 1,580
Not exactly...I'm ready since july 2020,it's just that all my attempts failed but i understand what are you talking about
I've had this feeling since I was 14. I hope to die this year.
ColorlessTrees
Stuck
- Jan 4, 2022
- 272
Yes. It's usually onset by failure or a particularly weak moment. However, I am always passively suicidal. I fear the unknown of death most of the time, yet I want to die. I wish for the void, but the damn potential and the lies I tell myself hold me back.
It seems to be a common feeling, unfortunately. It may be related to biologic desire to live, but it is extremely frustrating. I hope you are able to overcome this eventually.
Best wishes.
It seems to be a common feeling, unfortunately. It may be related to biologic desire to live, but it is extremely frustrating. I hope you are able to overcome this eventually.
Best wishes.
WhiteRabbit
I'm late, i'm late. For a very important date.
- Feb 12, 2019
- 1,724
I have moments where all I want to do is drink the N and lie down, but then if I really think about it for a while the fear and doubt start to creep in.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 43,750
In my case, I am only still here as it is so difficult to leave this world. I lack the option of a peaceful and reliable way to exit and there is the fear of failure. I am always ready to die, I just wish death would come peacefully but yet I am still stuck in this world. I just want eternal nothingness, I want to be free from all pain. Life is just a pointless struggle that I have no interest in, and I have suffered enough.
Braindead Atheist
Specialist
- Oct 7, 2020
- 387
Yes, sometimes I do then I get scared.
Yes, sometimes I do then I get scared.
Yes, sometimes I do then I get scared.
