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PsychosisGirls
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- Apr 21, 2021
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I know, please bear with me. A few days ago I realized that my suicidality went way down once I realized I could limit my pain to, say, 2030. Ten years.
I don't really know the source of this effect, but it seems like a part of me was deathly terrified of living in my condition for another 60 years. And I realized, I don't have to end myself right now, but I can set a fixed time in the reasonably distant future. Sort of like an anchor. A message from my past self to my future self, that I don't have to be in pain forever.
It hasn't been perfect, nothing is, but it's helped so I figured I'd share.
I don't really know the source of this effect, but it seems like a part of me was deathly terrified of living in my condition for another 60 years. And I realized, I don't have to end myself right now, but I can set a fixed time in the reasonably distant future. Sort of like an anchor. A message from my past self to my future self, that I don't have to be in pain forever.
It hasn't been perfect, nothing is, but it's helped so I figured I'd share.