Writing THE suicide note

[fieryending]

I am currently writing THE suicide note. I will probably be attempting to catch the bus tonight. I will cut up a sheet and use the tourniquet method. I will make a goodbye thread before I do anything though.

I can't take my family's shit anymore, I know I am part of the problem, but they see me as the whole problem. I can't deal anymore.

I can't even run away and have another place to go. I'm stuck here or my "Legal Guardian" will try and admit me involuntarily to another hospital.

The paradox is that I love life, I want to live, I have stuff to live for. But I am going to throw it all away tonight.

My chances of going to college easily were already fucked. That was going to be my way out but they destroyed it and blame it on me.

I just want to be in school.

How is it possible to be born in a first world country where I have food, water, a place to live, the internet, and no war or threats to my safety, yet still want to end my life?
I would trade places with someone who has gone through much more hardship than me in a heartbeat. I bet a life like that is more fulfilling.

 

[FohPah]

How is it possible to be born in a first world country where I have food, water, a place to live, the internet, and no war or threats to my safety, yet still want to end my life?

We don't necessarily feel best when we have the material things we want. We feel best when we're working toward a goal that's important to us, and we feel like we're making progress.

If we could get what we want and then feel permanently satisfied, then the species would never have lasted.

 

[fieryending]

I have the sheet cut so I have useable rope now. I still need more planning, I can't do it tonight.

 

[Time]

I have the sheet cut so I have useable rope now. I still need more planning, I can't do it tonight.

Hey, fieryending. I'm sorry that you've been brought to this point. With that said, unless you're on a deadline I suggest you take your time. A failed attempt could make things worse.

The paradox is that I love life, I want to live, I have stuff to live for. But I am going to throw it all away tonight.

I don't know you but sometimes things that can change or can be changed to make life livable. I just hope that you've exhausted every option to make your life better before you ctb. Either way, I support your decision. Take care.

 

[XoXoNae]

I am currently writing THE suicide note. I will probably be attempting to catch the bus tonight. I will cut up a sheet and use the tourniquet method. I will make a goodbye thread before I do anything though.

I can't take my family's shit anymore, I know I am part of the problem, but they see me as the whole problem. I can't deal anymore.

I can't even run away and have another place to go. I'm stuck here or my "Legal Guardian" will try and admit me involuntarily to another hospital.

The paradox is that I love life, I want to live, I have stuff to live for. But I am going to throw it all away tonight.

My chances of going to college easily were already fucked. That was going to be my way out but they destroyed it and blame it on me.

I just want to be in school.

How is it possible to be born in a first world country where I have food, water, a place to live, the internet, and no war or threats to my safety, yet still want to end my life?
I would trade places with someone who has gone through much more hardship than me in a heartbeat. I bet a life like that is more fulfilling.

Please don't not tonight anyway!! Please!! If you haven't will you PM me I have one last thing to tell you!!

 

[jgm63]

I am currently writing THE suicide note. I will probably be attempting to catch the bus tonight. I will cut up a sheet and use the tourniquet method. I will make a goodbye thread before I do anything though.

I can't take my family's shit anymore, I know I am part of the problem, but they see me as the whole problem. I can't deal anymore.

I can't even run away and have another place to go. I'm stuck here or my "Legal Guardian" will try and admit me involuntarily to another hospital.

The paradox is that I love life, I want to live, I have stuff to live for. But I am going to throw it all away tonight.

My chances of going to college easily were already fucked. That was going to be my way out but they destroyed it and blame it on me.

I just want to be in school.

How is it possible to be born in a first world country where I have food, water, a place to live, the internet, and no war or threats to my safety, yet still want to end my life?
I would trade places with someone who has gone through much more hardship than me in a heartbeat. I bet a life like that is more fulfilling.

Is there any way you could run away from home, and seek help from the authorities, or from any friend's family ?