Writing shit to myself

[darkenmydoorstep]

Not even really sure why I write this stuff. Just feels therapeutic.
Bit my nails and my skin on my hands so bad they bleed the last few days.
I just want out.
But I'm such a wuss. So weak. I get so mad at myself I'm not brave enough to do it. So depressing.
I so wish I could give my life to someone who wants it.
Trying so hard to manifest my own death, to wish myself a heart attack in my sleep or something.
Dear Universe

I am writing this in the hope I can possibly manifest my death if you are listening.

I would really love a fatal heart attack in my sleep or some other fatal thing to happen preferably in my sleep so there is minimal pain involved.

I get no joy from life, I simply endure it. By taking me away, the other people on earth get a bit more of the remaining resources.

Please send me death. I want it so badly, to go to sleep tonight and never wake up, for that to be it.

And when I do, please make this the last life. I want no reincarnation bollocks.

 

[joshua9119]

I hope you can find a way out of your suffering other than suicide.Psychiatric drugs and counseling are scientifically proven to have some effect.
It is truly brave and wonderful that you have cried out and endured your suffering
Again, I pray that your suffering will ease and that you will find new joy. (Sorry, I can only do this.)

 

[darkenmydoorstep]

I hope you can find a way out of your suffering other than suicide.Psychiatric drugs and counseling are scientifically proven to have some effect.
It is truly brave and wonderful that you have cried out and endured your suffering
Again, I pray that your suffering will ease and that you will find new joy. (Sorry, I can only do this.)

Thank you. Just like me wishing for my own death doesn't work, neither does you hoping stuff for me. What will be will be, hey?