Discussion Wow...I'm 20 years old and...don't wanna kill myself anymore? I've been trying to kill myself since I was 17. But now I wanna live? What the fuck?

[ConfusedHurting2632]

What the fuck? What even happened? How? Why? Do I deserve to feel this happy? Do I really deserve it? Is 17 to 20 really such a huge development phase? What happened to me? Am I even the same person? What the fuck? How did this happen? Why did this happen? Did I deserve this "happy ending?" What?

 

[Smart No More]

You come across a bit manic in your post so maybe you're dealing with something you're struggling to understand but if happiness is the result that's good. I hope it continues for you. I would maybe say don't try to over think it. Go with it and be happy.

 

[ConfusedHurting2632]

You come across a bit manic in your post so maybe you're dealing with something you're struggling to understand but if happiness is the result that's good. I hope it continues for you. I would maybe say don't try to over think it. Go with it and be happy.

Oh yeah...I got put in a mental hospital for 31 days for really bad manic behavior.

 

[Crazy4u]

it is good to hear that you want to live. 20 years old is a good time to move out and live on your own if you can. I wish you well on your road to recovery

 

[Oblivion Access]

I recommend not to question it when you feel happy, just enjoy it. All states, however elated or shattered are ultimately fleeting, if you win the biochemical diceroll for once cherish it as much as you can while it's there.

 

[Pain In The Ass]

What the fuck? What even happened? How? Why? Do I deserve to feel this happy? Do I really deserve it? Is 17 to 20 really such a huge development phase? What happened to me? Am I even the same person? What the fuck? How did this happen? Why did this happen? Did I deserve this "happy ending?" What?

What made you change your mind?

 

[HappyForever?]

You're lucky. I hope you leave this place and go on living a wonderful life and never look back.

 

[WadeingThru]

I got put in a mental hospital for 31 days for really bad manic behavior.

Where you release after the Doctors realized you were missed diagnosed? Sounds like you are just enthusiastic. You have a real zest for life.

 

[OldDrummer]

What the fuck? What even happened? How? Why? Do I deserve to feel this happy? Do I really deserve it? Is 17 to 20 really such a huge development phase? What happened to me? Am I even the same person? What the fuck? How did this happen? Why did this happen? Did I deserve this "happy ending?" What?

Teen years are hormone-city.

When I had manic BPD in my 30's, I was either ecstatic or on the floor. The mania was intense.

And yes, you do deserve happiness.

 

[Sherri]

I'm happy for you, to some people is just a period a bad period that goes away, hope that is your case. Good luck, and don't forget about us in your new life hug

 

[Istanbulite]

the worst is yet to come unfortunately. 25-29 is like hell. wishing you the best of course.

 

[Deadly_Intention]

I've been wanting to die since I was around 10 years old. I'm 34 now, still want to die. So you are really lucky to have a change of mind. Maybe mine comes too who knows

 

[sunsetting]

Well I'm glad you're feeling better now, try to preserve your current conditions.

 

[want2dienow]

wow what?
not a big surprise, that suicide ideation varies.

 

[Hookah-smoking-cat]

I would kill to be 20 again hun. Live it up. It goes by too fast❤

 

[Install-Gentoo]

I've been wanting to die since I was around 10 years old. I'm 34 now, still want to die. So you are really lucky to have a change of mind. Maybe mine comes too who knows

This is the kind of stuff I always want to tell people about but they always go on about the stupid "temporary problem" bullshit
Is 24 years really that temporary?

 

[Someone123]

At 127 you're probably in high school without that much freedom, and people may be bullying, even in a sneaky way. NOw at 20 you have a whole world of options and all the possibilities of life are still in front of you- maybe this change has helped.