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rotten
Student
- Apr 14, 2021
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If someone offered to ctb with you, would you accept their offer?
My ex was pretty suicidal to the point of trying to walk into traffic. I would say they were in that state of mind for about a year. Eventually, they approached me one night asking if I would ctb with them. I won't lie…it was an extremely tempting offer. I've always hated how isolating death could be, even in a room full of people…like there's absolutely no way anyone could understand what you are feeling in that moment. But dying alongside someone you care about seems so comforting.
Anyways, I told them no. I felt guilty because maybe my own suicidal antics led them to being this way. It also just felt wrong at the time.
Back then I wasn't as suicidal as I am now. So, if they were to ask me the same question again, I honestly have no idea what I would say.
My ex was pretty suicidal to the point of trying to walk into traffic. I would say they were in that state of mind for about a year. Eventually, they approached me one night asking if I would ctb with them. I won't lie…it was an extremely tempting offer. I've always hated how isolating death could be, even in a room full of people…like there's absolutely no way anyone could understand what you are feeling in that moment. But dying alongside someone you care about seems so comforting.
Anyways, I told them no. I felt guilty because maybe my own suicidal antics led them to being this way. It also just felt wrong at the time.
Back then I wasn't as suicidal as I am now. So, if they were to ask me the same question again, I honestly have no idea what I would say.