Would you kill yourself because you are afraid of something that might happen?

[Steamm]

Or only after it concretize?

 

[anxivoid]

Kinda my case. The easiest way to say that is - I'm afraid to live on. I'm a NEET and almost hikki. It is nearly impossible to live like this any longer. At least in my country. :С

 

[Jenn]

I have harm ocd so I struggle with this daily. I did try to commit suicide but it didn't work. Not sure I'll try again.

 

[mapletree]

Yeah. I have a lot of debt and I don't like the way things are going in general here- I have a bad feeling and when I've had bad feelings like this in the past I've usually been right.

 

[nitroautnz]

I can't leave with myself anymore, i relate a lot with the Belgium girl that can get euthanised if she want now, to some degree i share her problem, and have other issue but i managed to leave an ok life until now. Damn i even find love for the last 4 year and was the happiest i had ever been, but I know it was temporary as i m too dysfunctional to live happily, i cant deal with myself anymore.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

With the world going to hell and something that looks a lot like a sinister agenda unfolding, It's just one more reason to get out here.

 

[massiveblackhole]

Yes. I don't want to grow old, I don't want to have an accident where I'm paralysed or worse a vegetable - basically anything that would cause me to lose my independence so I wouldn't be able to kill myself but would depend on others who would keep me alive against my will. That is my worse nightmare and why I want to kill myselft before that could happen.

 

[ScaredToLive]

Yeah I'm primarily killing myself because I hate aging, I'm 34. In extremely fearful of losing my hair, and then losing my fiancé and my self confidence. It may sound extremely vain to some on here but I've always been able to gain the only self esteem I've had from my looks, and it's a huge part of my personality, I like clothes, getting my hair cut etc. I'm going to spend the next week releasing my music, finishing up some writing, and then that's me done. It's seems crazy I know but I just don't want to live with this constant anxiety about my hair checking my hairline every day, wishing it was the way it was when I was 18. You see this is what annoys me about "there's always a solution" Cool, solve aging and the possibility of losing my hair, give me my 18 year old hair line back and I'm good. If not fuck this shit

 

[wait.what]

Like some others, I'm afraid that civilization is breaking down where I live. I've had a serious mood disorder almost all my life, and I'm barely functional at the best of times. I am not going to be able to do the things that will be required for survival during a period of major instability. I'll just be a miserable, ungrateful burden taking resources from those who have a better shot at making it.

Given all that, I'd rather go out on my own terms. My worst fear is actually that I'll be too much of a coward to end my own life voluntarily, and so it will be ended for me in some really unpleasant way.

 

[ScaredToLive]

Like some others, I'm afraid that civilization is breaking down where I live. I've had a serious mood disorder almost all my life, and I'm barely functional at the best of times. I am not going to be able to do the things that will be required for survival during a period of major instability. I'll just be a miserable, ungrateful burden taking resources from those who have a better shot at making it.

Given all that, I'd rather go out on my own terms. My worst fear is actually that I'll be too much of a coward to end my own life voluntarily, and so it will be ended for me in some really unpleasant way.

Agree, I actually had Covid 19 and I was extremely scared of dying, that's despite the fact i literally want to die. It's a strange conundrum

 

[Deathbydemo]

Yes. I am terrified of not being able to cope with the mental turmoil of my ex finding another woman. I know that it will kill me. It might sound stupid to some people, what's the big deal right? People break up all the time and life goes on. But this man is literally the love of my life.

 

[nitroautnz]

Yes. I am terrified of not being able to cope with the mental turmoil of my ex finding another woman. I know that it will kill me. It might sound stupid to some people, what's the big deal right? People break up all the time and life goes on. But this man is literally the love of my life.

Dont be, i know exactly what you mean. Some people are whatever about it, but i dont understand how they can process it and being able to deal with it. Just the idea of it feel like reaping my heart out of my chest...

 

[death137]

Can't tell for sure but I might. I'm terrified with thoughts of sleeping alone and aging (me and ppl I like). Also I don't want see my mother die (father already dead and the experience was painful).

 

[Meditation guide]

I'm afraid of getting covid and with my bad health it won't be fun. Thank you US government for your lack of doing anything about this when you had the chance.

 

[Deathbydemo]

Dont be, i know exactly what you mean. Some people are whatever about it, but i dont understand how they can process it and being able to deal with it. Just the idea of it feel like reaping my heart out of my chest...

Me too. It's a completely soul crushing thought. It consumed my every waking thought.

 

[W3akCr3atur3]

Well I would prepare to ctb as best as I can in case some things happen. So I won't have to live with them longer than 2-3 days.

 

[InevitablePattern91]

Well, the only reason I have to ctb is something that will happen in 12 to 15 months.

I call torture the time between now and the time it will happen, because I know it will happen and there's nothing I can do to prevent it from happening.

So yea, I will ctb because I'm afraid of something that will happen.

 

[CrazyMary]

Yeah, that might be one of the main reasons I will do it. Have had serious thoughts about it since february. I hoped things got better but they haven´t, not my mental health, not the thing I fear plus being stuck indoors due to Covid sucks even more. I know that if I held on I could beat what I fear, but the problem is the every day struggle and feeling my doctors and medications are not really helping.

 

[Mr2005]

Kinda. Yeah. So petrified of the outcome of a certain thing that I just contemplate just doing it instead.

 

[Spitfire]

Yea, I think this is a big reason for many people to be thinking to take their life. One example I can think of is if it was inevitable you were going to be sent to prison for a long time.

Or only after it concretize?

Depending on what it is, I would say wait...

 

[stupid little girl]

Absolutely.

 

[Sherri]

Absolutely yes!

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Yes. Because I'm afraid of a worse scenario than the current one.