Would you ctb because of chronic pain?

[hunter_lewis]

Hi,
I have Morton's neuromas in both feet and have been ill at home for months. I have had the neuromas for 2 years but it never was much of a problem. Now since July I have been very ill with severe foot pain (cannot walk for long periods of time) and migraines. I have been going from doctor to doctor and it seems no one can help me. My surgery was postponed because the doctors didn't know what the cause of my foot pain was.
Now I am going to another clinic to get the surgery done, but the outcome is unclear. I could possibly not be able to walk without severe pain afterwards.
Do you thnk this is a good enough reason for ctb? My BF knows about my suicide but it was always something we wanted to do in old age, not now. He gets really bad anxiety over it and I am also very close to my parents and don't want to leave them, but life in a wheelchair is never something I wanted. That's why I have always wanted to ctb in old age.

 

[hunter_lewis]

The pain is pretty severe and so far no doctor has offered me anything for pain relief except Ibuprofen

 

[Schopenhauer]

Only you can decide how much pain is too much. But if you do think that it's more than you can handle, sapping your will to live, and your prospects of getting better are highly uncertain, then in my opinion it's a valid reason to ctb.

 

[ctoan]

i think a chronic illness/pain is even one the "most legitimate" suicide reasons ever

 

[Duqu]

Yes there's a thread in the off topic section about chronic illnesses. I have a bunch of chronic illnesses but the most painful one is Ehler's Danlos Syndrome (EDS) its a genetic disorder that effects collagen (it's all faulty) so I dislocate constantly and sprain and twist things if I try and like, move lol. I am in a wheelchair 75% of the time, 25% with forearm crutches.

 

[hunter_lewis]

Yes there's a thread in the off topic section about chronic illnesses. I have a bunch of chronic illnesses but the most painful one is Ehler's Danlos Syndrome (EDS) its a genetic disorder that effects collagen (it's all faulty) so I dislocate constantly and sprain and twist things if I try and like, move lol. I am in a wheelchair 75% of the time, 25% with forearm crutches.

my best friend actually has this, because of it her aorta nearly ripped and they had to save her life last minute in surgery...it is a horrible, horrible disease

 

[TAW122]

Absolutely. Especially if the condition is long term, permanent, and negatively impacts my day to day life without end. I have a few hobbies currently, music and video games and if I am unable to pursue them in the way I want to (under my own terms and goals), then that would be a very big reason (not even including other reasons) alone to ctb.

 

[Trashcan]

It's up to you whether you end it or not. That sounds like a hard situation to be in and it sucks to be in pain. Were you depressed before this? If not, it might be a good idea to wait it out... but if you can't imagine it getting better, ctb seems like a good option. However, at the end of the day, it's up to you. Good luck either way and may you find peace.

 

[Morning Angel]

Hi,
I have Morton's neuromas in both feet and have been ill at home for months. I have had the neuromas for 2 years but it never was much of a problem. Now since July I have been very ill with severe foot pain (cannot walk for long periods of time) and migraines. I have been going from doctor to doctor and it seems no one can help me. My surgery was postponed because the doctors didn't know what the cause of my foot pain was.
Now I am going to another clinic to get the surgery done, but the outcome is unclear. I could possibly not be able to walk without severe pain afterwards.
Do you thnk this is a good enough reason for ctb? My BF knows about my suicide but it was always something we wanted to do in old age, not now. He gets really bad anxiety over it and I am also very close to my parents and don't want to leave them, but life in a wheelchair is never something I wanted. That's why I have always wanted to ctb in old age.

Yes.

 

[SamK]

yes ... and I am

I'm tired of relying on morphine to stay sitting up.
:-) when quality of life fades to nothing, what's a person to do?
I spent 3 years sleeping as long as i could to escape. But now i'm at the end of my rope. The chronic pain has been a huge contributor/reason.

 

[SamK]

On a sidenote that is terrible that they will only give you ibuprofen! can you see a new doctor??
If the pain is making you seriously consider suicide and all they are giving is ibuprofen.. that speaks volumes at you having a terrible doc.

you in the uk? If you have no relief, i'd suggest asking for a referal to a pain clinic and/or buying codeine over the counter from a pharmacy, explain as best as you can to them about your pain. Ibuprofen when you have pain like this is no more effective than a sugarpill would be. So sorry I hope you find some relief soon.

 

[Duqu]

my best friend actually has this, because of it her aorta nearly ripped and they had to save her life last minute in surgery...it is a horrible, horrible disease

I'm sorry your friend had to go through that. There are six different types, and I have the same type she has (most likely); vascular, with classical crossover (meaning I have the symptomology of classical but not the genetic markers for it). I don't have any heart defects though; instead it was caught by 2 vertebral artery dissections in my neck at C1/C2. I didn't even know I had them until I literally DISLOCATED MY NECK and went to the ER (we're talking over the 10 point scale in pain here when I tried to move my neck/head) and it took like 6 doses of IV dilaudid (maaaan does that feel good...I take the pills and it doesn't do anything like that but I'd never been high before and I was like "oooh THIS is why people chase highs lol") before I could lay flat for a CT (and by then the neck had popped back in due to the muscles relaxing; they're still unsure of which vertabrae dislocated) and they did a CT Of my my neck an they're like "you sure the pain was/is on the LEFT side of your neck?" and I'm like "Yeah! Duh!" and they said "well it's the RIGHT side of your neck that's effed up..."

Now I take a baby aspirin every day to avoid stroke.

But most people with vascular type don't live to see 40 and I'm 30 already. So if I suddenly disappear it's not because I CTB (I'll definitely post a thread) it's because this damn disorder probably killed me in some horribly painful way.

 

[Roph]

If it's making life miserable, then yes.