Well in my case isn't the word "suicidal", i simply just don't want to live life and simply just want to not exist at all, it's not that I don't want to live 'because of a reason'/'because I'm 'suffering''/'because I'm 'depressed'' blah blah or whatever other "reason", no. So for me the word "suicidal" isn't the correct one, it has that connotation of 'not wanting to live'/'wantinf to die' because of a reason/'suffering' etc, and 'meaning'/'definition' that fits/suits all of 'you', but not 'me'. I simply just don't want to and thats it lol and never will no matter how it is/what happens/how it works/what it is about/the "established/designed/standardized/programmed/structured life" that exists etcetc. But well now answering the question, obviously i would just want to not exist at all. No matter what 'era' 'im' in. No matter what the 'times' are etc. I don't give a fck what kind/type/way of 'life' it is neither the 'times' that 'life' is 'lived'/'experienced'. It's not that "modern life"/"current life"/"modern world"/"modern society"/"this life standard" is the "problem". No lol, i couldn't care less. It's "life" in a very very general/objective way speaking, in general no matter how it is/what way it is etc, that i simply just don't have any "interest" at all in it and simply just literally don't want to experience/do it. I mean I would be killed probably by a bear or whatever anyways, i wouldn't even have to do it myself lol, definitely much easier to die back then than now lol wanting to die intentionally is hard af unfortunately in this 'contemporary world/society'. So yeah i would also want to die in 'prehistoric era' and literally any other 'age', basically no matter how it is and what happens. And well even if i was interested in 'life' and wanted to live/experience it I would be killed anyways by some animal or a disease lol