woofwag
Bad dog
- Sep 17, 2025
- 227
I have meto which was highly effective at stopping me from vomiting my guts out when I was super hungover one time (that being said, I had already thrown up a lot). Do you think it would be enough to prevent me from barfing up my SN if I also get tipsy? I just don't want to go out totally sober. Idk if I have the strength for it. And weed highs are typically not great for me, definitely not something I'd want to CTB on. Idk. Thoughts?
Well... my therapist of 3 years just dumped me. I woke up to an email from her about it since I canceled our session. She said it was cuz "Your expressed symptoms of worsening suicidality and self injury are not being managed effectively at your current level of care with me," and that "I won't be willing to continue seeing you without an acceptance on your part to pause and attend IOP, which is the appropriate level of care for you at this time." I've already done IOP. And it helped for a tiny bit of time, only to have the feelings of hope from it fade in less than a month. I don't have the money to do IOP again anyway. Idk. I shouldn't have talked about being suicidal with her. I should have just tried to focus on system stuff, which she was actually very helpful at assisting with. I guess I just have to figure it out alone now. And um... I can't do that. They don't fucking listen to me. And I don't know how to get them to listen without her help. Maybe this is a good thing. Because now there is really nothing left that's going to brighten my mood or ease up on the constant voices screaming at me to CTB. I'll just give in. How I always wanted. I guess.