3/4Dead
This Body Needs An Overhaul
- Feb 27, 2024
- 163
Just so tired.
Done with my parents, done with shitty overwhelming jobs, done with depression and anxiety, done with PTSD, just done with living. If I had a place to go (don't have the money for a hotel at the moment) I would be dying tonight.
Every day is exhausting, it's been this way for years, everything is so pointless. I am so useless. I am a burden.
Am I to work for the rest of my life, hoping it will be worth it one day for the people around me? Am I to be lonely, sad, and tired until I keel over naturally?
I want to be dead, but I know better than to do something stupid and risky. Were ODing reliable I'd down everything I have and split off to a park, or were I less concerned about failure I would jump from a building or a bridge.
Just want to be free of this life. Wishing it could be over.
I'm giving it at least another day or two before I decide whether or not I'll go through with it so soon, and if so how I'll do it. I'm upset now, and I'm sure I'm not entirely thinking straight, I need to give it time, and I need to sell and get rid of my things.
I'll share an update after a few days if I've decided to begin a plan to CTB soon.
Done with my parents, done with shitty overwhelming jobs, done with depression and anxiety, done with PTSD, just done with living. If I had a place to go (don't have the money for a hotel at the moment) I would be dying tonight.
Every day is exhausting, it's been this way for years, everything is so pointless. I am so useless. I am a burden.
Am I to work for the rest of my life, hoping it will be worth it one day for the people around me? Am I to be lonely, sad, and tired until I keel over naturally?
I want to be dead, but I know better than to do something stupid and risky. Were ODing reliable I'd down everything I have and split off to a park, or were I less concerned about failure I would jump from a building or a bridge.
Just want to be free of this life. Wishing it could be over.
I'm giving it at least another day or two before I decide whether or not I'll go through with it so soon, and if so how I'll do it. I'm upset now, and I'm sure I'm not entirely thinking straight, I need to give it time, and I need to sell and get rid of my things.
I'll share an update after a few days if I've decided to begin a plan to CTB soon.
