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[pulmonarydead]

genuinely just so fucking stuck, if god is real he hates me and i don't know what i did wrong. my friend helped me get a job and today marks 2.5 weeks being there.

i didn't hit my kpis at all, i feel like such a failure, ive been jobless since i almost involuntarily died in february so it should have been such a big relief but today i just wanted to shoot myself being there, i miss my old job, wish i never took it for granted and i would be so much farther and happier in life i think

 

[brokeandbroken]

genuinely just so fucking stuck, if god is real he hates me and i don't know what i did wrong. my friend helped me get a job and today marks 2.5 weeks being there.

i didn't hit my kpis at all, i feel like such a failure, ive been jobless since i almost involuntarily died in february so it should have been such a big relief but today i just wanted to shoot myself being there, i miss my old job, wish i never took it for granted and i would be so much farther and happier in life i think

Sorry I have the job of the worst luck on lockdown.

 

[pulmonarydead]

Sorry I have the job of the worst luck on lockdown.

bahahahah maybe u do tell me abt it if u want i'm happy to listen ^^

 

[brokeandbroken]

bahahahah maybe u do tell me abt it if u want i'm happy to listen ^^

Went to college worked/studied my ass off with the goal of becoming a doctor. After worked as a medical scribe primarily as a scribe at an oncology clinic. Got into medical school. Was president of the oncology research group, presented a paper I co-authored at conference, interned at an oncology clinic, etc... Was the victim of crimes by the medical school and illegally forced out in good standing in March of 2022 I can link in the story if you want. Everyone abandoned me. No one gives a shit people even admit I was the victim of crimes but no one gives a fuck. I can't get a job despite hundreds of applications. I contacted a job placement specialist who continuously just blows me off with b.s. excuses. I'm drowning in debt. I'm a nerdy white kid from the country/suburbs. I've struggled with mental health and was basically kicked out of the town I was living in and shipped to the middle of the ghetto in one of the more dangerous cities in the US in one of the more dangerous neighborhoods. There was a shooting just a couple weeks ago across the street. I'm in an absoluting disgusting board and lodge. Where people just piss in the hallways and the bathrooms make you want to puke. The food is horrible I just don't eat it. I have no future. No friends. No family. Just nothing really. I'm treated lower then dirt by everyone.

Edit here's a link to a Google drive with evidence and my story https://drive.google.com/drive/mobile/folders/1Uh1nStz3gJ-NaeX4vyfRwcpV3PvJWx47?usp=sharing

 

[pulmonarydead]

Edit here's a link to a Google drive with evidence and my story https://drive.google.com/drive/mobile/folders/1Uh1nStz3gJ-NaeX4vyfRwcpV3PvJWx47?usp=sharing

i'm just reading this drive now, holy fuck i am so sorry this happened, i know you don't know me and this doesn't mean much but ill say it anyway— you didnt deserve this and it wasn't your fault AT ALL. it's probably because i haven't finished reading the drive, but i am confused as to why no one will hire you? how are employers viewing this incident as a personal fault?

also, i would love to be your friend, if you wanted to make friends in here, but my account is too new so i can't pm people.

 

[Imagined_Euphoria]

I can't even work, I got so stressed and depressed at any job I tried that they usually fired me after 1 or 2 weeks. I just can't perform in this capitalistic death spiral called society.

 

[brokeandbroken]

i'm just reading this drive now, holy fuck i am so sorry this happened, i know you don't know me and this doesn't mean much but ill say it anyway— you didnt deserve this and it wasn't your fault AT ALL. it's probably because i haven't finished reading the drive, but i am confused as to why no one will hire you? how are employers viewing this incident as a personal fault?

also, i would love to be your friend, if you wanted to make friends in here, but my account is too new so i can't pm people.

I understand just pm when you can and we can talk on here. And yeah there's a lot on there. It's a way for me to store the material for the case and not risk losing it with the obvious tradeoff. But I would prefer people to believe me and this is a good to do so. For instance the dworcka document shows a lot along with a lot of the minutes in terms of conduct and NBME. Thank you :)

 

[pulmonarydead]

I can't even work, I got so stressed and depressed at any job I tried that they usually fired me after 1 or 2 weeks. I just can't perform in this capitalistic death spiral called society.

well i haven't been able to work since last year and it's pushing me too far already but everyone is so happy for me and i need the money so i can't just leave hahahahs

what kind of jobs have u tried? have u tried working from home?

I understand just pm when you can and we can talk on here. And yeah there's a lot on there. It's a way for me to store the material for the case and not risk losing it with the obvious tradeoff. But I would prefer people to believe me and this is a good to do so. For instance the dworcka document shows a lot along with a lot of the minutes in terms of conduct and NBME. Thank you :)

yeah of course i understand, that's smart!! and yes i will message you as soon as i can :)

 

[Arahant]

@brokeandbroken Man that is brutal and unfair. I am sorry that happened to you.

I come to remember someone who was stuck in his medical career, and opted to do humanitarian work, and as a result of that attained a residency in neurosurgery.
I don't know how you feel about humanitarian work, if you finished med school with a license, or if it's right for you, just thought I would mention it, if it can get you out of that gangland hellhole you currently are stuck in.

 

[brokeandbroken]

@brokeandbroken Man that is brutal and unfair. I am sorry that happened to you.

I come to remember someone who was stuck in his medical career, and opted to do humanitarian work, and as a result of that attained a residency in neurosurgery.
I don't know how you feel about humanitarian work, if you finished med school with a license, or if it's right for you, just thought I would mention it, if it can get you out of that gangland hellhole you currently are stuck in.

They kicked me out while I was in medical school therefore no license. I have too much debt to take out more loans without a co-signer and my parents not only refused to help me get a lawyer but definitely have zero interest in furthering my "career". I think the exact words were we won't spend another dime on you. So I have no options there but honestly. If I am going to bust my ass for the world. When I am victim an actual victim I should get expedient and plentiful help. Given that hasn't happened. I shouldn't be and honestly while I love medicine I shouldn't be a doctor. My mentor also committed suicide my second year in medical school so I don't really have help there either. So I don't really have any options to further my education, can't get hired, and can't get legal help. I basically forced into misery.

 

[Arahant]

Those are some thoroughbred asshole parents. @brokeandbroken

Apologies in advance if this is old news to you, but some litigation lawyers are willing to take payment if/when the case is won.
I get the impression you are american, and if so there should be no shortage of ambulance merciless bulldog lawyers.

 

[brokeandbroken]

Those are some thoroughbred asshole parents. @brokeandbroken

Apologies in advance if this is old news to you, but some litigation lawyers are willing to take payment if/when the case is won.
I get the impression you are american, and if so there should be no shortage of ambulance merciless bulldog lawyers.

The issue is I went to medical school in Poland. While in talking with lawyers I could sue in the US while I suspect it may not be completely true what I was told was that you would need a bank account to sue for and while it would be the polish government in essence as it was a public university and the university does do business in the US I was basically told I would win but there would be nothing to win therefore would need to sue in Poland. Okay cool. Except in Poland contingency fee only lawyers aren't legal. Meaning that you need money to hire them. I have negative money so that isn't possible. Furthermore, they would need to speak English and while many do many don't. Even more so it is proving really difficult to find a lawyer willing. Which means I need to find a pro-bono lawyer and that is just very difficult.

The one silver lining is I have been communicating with the prosecutor's office which has indicated they want to prosecute and are trying to help me get a lawyer appointed. However, who knows how that will pan out. They also have been radio silent for the last 3 weeks or so after requesting documents I provided. Which means I just wake up everyday to look at my phone to see if a miracle has happened. Even more so I am basically at the mercy of the Polish court system and who knows how they will treat an American I am not Polish. Even if I win. My life is completely destroyed. Hopefully this answers that.

-> You asked about not getting employed. And I don't know. I haven't been applying to high paying jobs like 45k a year. Checking every box in terms of qualifications usually way over qualified in all honesty. I have had some interviews like to a 911 dispatcher job but nothing has panned out. Even that though at 45k is like 10% of what I would've made as a doctor....There has been probably 500+ job applications conservatively in numerous different fields. From sandwich artist at jimmy johns, stockboy at Amazon, 911 dispatcher, to medical writer.

 

[Imagined_Euphoria]

well i haven't been able to work since last year and it's pushing me too far already but everyone is so happy for me and i need the money so i can't just leave hahahahs

what kind of jobs have u tried? have u tried working from home?

yeah of course i understand, that's smart!! and yes i will message you as soon as i can :)

I tried many jobs, from working at places similar to Walmart to selling flowers, sitting in an office at a pc for 8 hours, working from home at the pc for 8 hours...I'm not fit for responsibility and also barely interested in this whole system. I can't function like they want me to, to be a good slave in this capitalistic factory of death and look the other way among the atrocities. I'm too fucking fragile for this world and everyone lets me know that. I cry so often because of this.