worse than ever

[Aprilfarewell4]

4 people i know died in the last 6 months by suicide. including my fiance. i am next. i got worse than ever. i did it to myself. have SN. no other meds with it. wish I was never born. never wanted to die like this. impossible to get better. wish I wanted to die, would be easier. this life was horrible to me.

 

[bladeeluvr444]

I'm so sorry, I hope you can find peace eventually <3

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I'm so sorry, I hope you can find peace eventually <3

i will. wish i could have known it in life. i hope you will be okay

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing, it sounds like you've suffered a lot, I also wish I never existed more than anything. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

 

[OptingOutSmiling]

Truly sorry for your loss, I can only imagine how everything seems unbearable in these times. Sending you love

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

It's so cruel and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing, it sounds like you've suffered a lot, I also wish I never existed more than anything. But anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the relief you search for.

I wish I'd never existed too. None of it was worth what's happened to me.

Truly sorry for your loss, I can only imagine how everything seems unbearable in these times. Sending you love

It was unbearable before he killed himself. Thank you for responding. I just reached the end of my days. Please take care of yourself, I like your screen name, I'm going to do everything when I leave to muster a smile.

 

[Well_Its_Time]

I am sorry for your loss. I understand that you must be devastated with everything that has happened to you. I hope you find peace

 

[Aprilfarewell4]

I am sorry for your loss. I understand that you must be devastated with everything that has happened to you. I hope you find peace

I am devastated, yes, 99% of it was my own fault. Thank you for responding. It's hard to know on top of the suffering itself, that you're responsible for the outcomes of all your decisions now in a permanent way, that's the added brutality of my situation. It breaks my heart, I wish everything could have gone differently for everyone who is out of options. I still care about others, I don't want anybody to end up like me. I failed at life and killed me.