Worried about sibling if i ctb

[Imamistakendumarsse]

I'm really worried about my younger brother. He's one of the best brothers a guy could ask for but he's only 11. I made a mistake that had lost me 4 years of my life and I'm in India, where the whole culture is kinda screwed up. I've been suicidal for a long time and I'm just tired of living. I have hope occasionally but then immediately spiral back into negativity. His life will be ruined if i go because i don't think our mom will be able to survive without me. I really don't know what to do. I'm tired of living and i see no point on it. I know dead men hear no tales and in the end, we really are indic in this small planet, but it hurts to leave him behind. But I can't stay either

 

[Arrow]

i'm sorry life has put you in such a position friend, i hope strength finds you. i knoe life seems pointless and painful now, but if you think you should keep going for your family's sake, that's a fine choice. the sun will come up tomorrow, i'm sure of it, even under the darkest clouds.